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es, boarding-school, finishing school, debut--all concentrated into this happy year of being among gay, clever, animated people." "Yet you will not let me take you into a world which is still pleasanter--" And the eternal discussion immediately became inevitable, tiring both with its earnestness and its utter absence of a common ground. Because in him apparently remained every vital germ of convention and of generations of training in every precept of formality; and in her--for with Valerie West adolescence had arrived late--that mystery had been responsible for far-reaching disturbances consequent on the starved years of self-imprisonment, of exaltations suppressed, of fears and doubts and vague desires and dreams ineffable possessing the silence of a lonely soul. And so, essentially solitary, inevitably lonely, out of her own young heart and an untrained mind she was evolving a code of responsibility to herself and to the world. Her ethics and her morals were becoming what wide, desultory, and unrestrained reading was making them; her passion for happiness and for truth, her restless intelligence, were prematurely forming her character. There was no one in authority to tell her--check, guide, or direct her in the revolt from dogmatism, pedantry, sophistry and conventionalism. And by this path youthful intelligence inevitably passes, incredulous of snare and pitfall where lie the bones of many a savant under magic blossoms nourished by creeds long dead. "To bring no sorrow to any one, Louis--that is the way I am trying to live," she said, seriously. "You are bringing it to me." "If that is so--then I had better depart as I came and leave you in peace." "It's too late." "Perhaps it is not. Shall we try it?" "Could _you_ recover?" "I don't know. I am willing to try for your sake." "Do you _want_ to?" he asked, almost angrily. "I am not thinking of myself, Louis." "I _want_ you to. I don't want you _not_ to think about yourself all the time." She made a hopeless gesture, opening her arms and turning her palms outward: "Kelly Neville! _What_ do you suppose loving you means to me?" "Don't you think of yourself at all when you love me?" "Why--I suppose I do--in a way. I know I'm fortunate, happy--I--" She glanced up shyly--"I am glad that I am--loved--" "You darling!" She let him take her into his arms, suffered his caress, looking at him in silence out of eyes as dark and c
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