him, comprehended many of the worst emotions which militate against
human happiness. You could not contradict him but you raised quick
choler; you could not speak of wealth, but the cheek paled with gnawing
envy. The astonishing natural advantages of this poor boy his beauty,
his readiness, the daring spirit that breathed around him like a fiery
atmosphere--had raised his constitutional self-confidence into an
arrogance that turned his very claims to admiration into prejudices
against him. Irascible, envious, arrogant,--bad enough, but not the
worst, for these salient angles were all varnished over with a cold,
repellent cynicism,--his passions vented themselves in sneers. There
seemed in him no moral susceptibility, and, what was more remarkable in
a proud nature, little or nothing of the true point of honor. He had,
to a morbid excess, that desire to rise which is vulgarly called
"ambition," but no apparent wish for fame or esteem or the love of his
species; only the hard wish to succeed, not shine, not serve,--succeed,
that he might have the right to despise a world which galled his
self-conceit, and enjoy the pleasures which the redundant nervous
life in him seemed to crave. Such were the more patent attributes of a
character that, ominous as it was, yet interested me, and yet appeared
to me to be redeemable,--nay, to have in it the rude elements of a
certain greatness. Ought we not to make something great out of a youth,
under twenty, who has, in the highest degree, quickness to conceive
and courage to execute? On the other hand, all faculties that can
make greatness, contain those that can attain goodness. In the savage
Scandinavian or the ruthless Frank lay the germs of a Sidney or a
Bayard. What would the best of us be if he were suddenly placed at war
with the whole world? And this fierce spirit was at war with the whole
world,--a war self-sought, perhaps, but it was war not the less. You
must surround the savage with peace, if you want the virtues of peace.
I cannot say that it was in a single interview and conference that I
came to these convictions; but I am rather summing up the impressions
which I received as I saw more of this person, whose destiny I presumed
to take under my charge.
In going away, I said, "But at all events you have a name in your
lodgings: whom am I to ask for when I call tomorrow?"
"Oh! you may know my name now," said he smiling, "it is Vivian,--Francis
Vivian."
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