FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   1686   1687   1688   1689   1690   1691   1692   1693   1694   1695   1696   1697   1698   1699   1700   1701   1702   1703   1704   1705   1706   1707   1708   1709   1710  
1711   1712   1713   1714   1715   1716   1717   1718   1719   1720   1721   1722   1723   1724   1725   1726   1727   1728   1729   1730   1731   1732   1733   1734   1735   >>   >|  
his book. He could not write about the sixteenth century any more than we could read about it, while the nineteenth was in the very agony and bloody sweat of its great sacrifice. Another most eminent scholar told us in all simplicity that he had fallen into such a state that he would read the same telegraphic dispatches over and over again in different papers, as if they were new, until he felt as if he were an idiot. Who did not do just the same thing, and does not often do it still, now that the first flush of the fever is over? Another person always goes through the side streets on his way for the noon extra,--he is so afraid somebody will meet him and tell the news he wishes to read, first on the bulletin-board, and then in the great capitals and leaded type of the newspaper. When any startling piece of war-news comes, it keeps repeating itself in our minds in spite of all we can do. The same trains of thought go tramping round in circle through the brain, like the supernumeraries that make up the grand army of a stage-show. Now, if a thought goes round through the brain a thousand times in a day, it will have worn as deep a track as one which has passed through it once a week for twenty years. This accounts for the ages we seem to have lived since the twelfth of April last, and, to state it more generally, for that ex post facto operation of a great calamity, or any very powerful impression, which we once illustrated by the image of a stain spreading backwards from the leaf of life open before as through all those which we have already turned. Blessed are those who can sleep quietly in times like these! Yet, not wholly blessed, either; for what is more painful than the awaking from peaceful unconsciousness to a sense that there is something wrong, we cannot at first think what,--and then groping our way about through the twilight of our thoughts until we come full upon the misery, which, like some evil bird, seemed to have flown away, but which sits waiting for us on its perch by our pillow in the gray of the morning? The converse of this is perhaps still more painful. Many have the feeling in their waking hours that the trouble they are aching with is, after all, only a dream,--if they will rub their eyes briskly enough and shake themselves, they will awake out of it, and find all their supposed grief is unreal. This attempt to cajole ourselves out of an ugly fact always reminds us of those unhappy
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   1686   1687   1688   1689   1690   1691   1692   1693   1694   1695   1696   1697   1698   1699   1700   1701   1702   1703   1704   1705   1706   1707   1708   1709   1710  
1711   1712   1713   1714   1715   1716   1717   1718   1719   1720   1721   1722   1723   1724   1725   1726   1727   1728   1729   1730   1731   1732   1733   1734   1735   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

thought

 

painful

 
Another
 

unreal

 

attempt

 

cajole

 

turned

 

Blessed

 

blessed

 

awaking


supposed

 
wholly
 
quietly
 

powerful

 
impression
 
illustrated
 

unhappy

 

calamity

 

operation

 

reminds


peaceful

 

spreading

 

backwards

 

waiting

 

generally

 

pillow

 

trouble

 

feeling

 

morning

 
converse

aching

 

briskly

 
groping
 

twilight

 

waking

 
thoughts
 

misery

 
unconsciousness
 

papers

 
afraid

person

 

streets

 

dispatches

 
nineteenth
 

bloody

 

century

 
sixteenth
 

sacrifice

 

telegraphic

 
fallen