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luminate her whole face, to change into a smile on the tyrannical line of her lips. "When?" he repeated. Without knowing why, the student was afraid; but almost at once he gathered himself together. "Tell me, tell me, when?" he stammered. "I don't know." "You've got to tell me!" "You're crazy!" "No matter, tell me, when?" Insidiously she replied: "Never. Or--when you bring me the necklace I asked you for!" Struck dumb, he peered at her, because he realized the girl meant what she said. She added: "Then----" The door closed. Enrique Darles blundered, weeping, down the staircase. IV Darles got up next morning very early and went wandering out into the street. He was completely done up. The night had been one of terror and insomnia; and when day had dawned, finding him in his miserable little room--a room whose only furniture was a bureau covered with books and magazines, a rickety pine table and a few rush-bottomed chairs, all mean and old--the realization of his solitude had struck him with the violence of a blow. He had felt that profound agitation which psychologists call "claustrophobia," or the fear of enclosed spaces. For a long time he wandered about, absorbed in vacillations that had neither name nor plan. He hardly knew himself. His conscience had been cruelly wrung in a few hours of suffering; and from this savage convulsion of the soul unsuspected developments were emerging, enormous moral unfoldings, filled with terrifying perplexities. His despair had loosed a stupendous avalanche of problems against the bulwark of those moral principles which had been taught him as a child. And each of these questions was now a terrible problem for him. Where, he wondered, does virtue end? Where does sin commence? And if all our natural forces should go straight toward the goal of happiness, why should there be any desires that codes of formulated ethics should judge depraved and sinful? Why should not everything which pleases be allowed? When he reached the Calle de Atocha, he met a friend of his, called Pascual Canamares. This friend was a medical student like himself. The two young fellows greeted each other. Canamares was on his way to San Carlos. "Do you want to come along with me?" he asked. "I'll show you the dissecting-room." Darles went along with his friend. Canamares noticed Enrique's pallor. "You don't look a bit well this morning," said he. "No, I didn't sl
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