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in her veins. It permeated her being and filled her heart with warm desires. This feeling had been stealing upon her so gradually and insidiously that she had never realized it until this moment,--the moment when it had taken full possession of her soul. "I love him! I love him!" she repeated to herself. "I have struggled against it,--I have denied it. I did not want to do it,--it is misery! But I can't help it,--I love him! I, Fouchette, the spy, who would have betrayed him, who wronged him, who thought love impossible!" She did not try to deceive herself. She knew that at this moment, when her heart was so full of him, he was thinking of another woman,--a beautiful and pure being that was worthy of his love,--that he had forgotten her very existence. She had not the remotest idea of trying to attract that love to herself. She did not even indulge in the pardonable girlish dreams in which "If" is the principal character. He was as impossible to her as the pyramids of Egypt. Therefore she was frightened. "Mon Dieu! but I surely do love him!" She communed with her poor little bursting heart. "And it is beautiful to love!" She sighed deeply. "Mademoiselle!" She started visibly, as if he had read her thoughts as well as heard her sigh, and felt the hot blood mantle her neck again,--for the second time within her memory. "Pardon! mademoiselle," he said, gently, "I forgot. I was thinking----" "Of her? Yes,--I know. It is--how you startled me!" There was a perceptible chord of sympathy in her voice, and he moved his chair around to hers and made as if he would take her hand in the usual way. But to his surprise she rose and, seating herself on a low divan some distance from him, leaned her elbows on her knees and rested her downcast face between her hands. She could not bear to have him touch her. "Mon enfant! Mon amie!" he remonstrated, in a grieved tone. "Bah! it is nothing," she murmured; "and nothing magnified is still nothing." There was that in her voice which touched a heart surcharged with tenderness. He came over and stood beside her. "I was thinking----" "Of her,--yes,--I understand----" "And I lose myself in my love," he added. "Yes; love! Oui da!" She laughed a little hysterically and shrugged the thin shoulders without changing her position. "Ah!" he exclaimed, pityingly, "you do not know what love is!" "Me? No! Why should I?" She never once looked up at him. She
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