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nowledge of the real cause of Madeleine's misfortune,--the jealous grisette whom she had set on to worse than murder. But she was thinking only of Jean Marot now. Love had awakened her soul to the enormity of her offence. It also caused her to suffer remorse for her general conduct. Before she loved she never cared; she had never suffered mentally. Now she was on the rack. She was being punished. Love had furrowed the virgin ground of her heart and turned up self-consciousness and conscience, and sowed womanly sweetness, and tenderness, and pity, and humility, and the sensitiveness to pain. Mlle. Fouchette, living in the shadow of the world's greatest educational institutions, was, perhaps naturally, a heathen. She feared neither God nor devil. Jean Marot was her only tangible idea of God. His contempt would be her punishment. To live where he was not would be Hell. To secure herself against this damnation she was ready to sacrifice anything,--everything! She would have willingly offered herself to be cuffed and beaten every day of her life by him, and would have worshipped him and kissed the hand that struck her. Perhaps, after all, the purest and holiest love is that which stands ready to sacrifice everything to render its object happy; that, blotting out self and trampling natural desire underfoot, thinks only of the one great aim and end, the happiness of the beloved. This was the instinct now of the girl who struggled with her emotions, who sought a way out that would accomplish that end very much desired by her as well as Jean. There was at the same time a faint idea that her own material happiness lay in the same direction. "Monsieur Jean!" "Well?" "You must make friends with Lerouge." "But, mon enfant, if----" "There are no 'buts' and 'ifs.' You must make friends with the brother or you can never hope to win his sister. That is clear. Write to him,--apologize to him,--anything----" "I don't just see my way open," he began. "You can't apologize to a man who tries to assassinate you on sight." "You were friends before that day in the Place de la Concorde?" "We had not come to blows." "Politics,--is that all?" "That is all that divides us, and, parbleu! it divides a good many in France just now." "Yes. Monsieur Jean, you must change your politics," she promptly responded. "Wha-at? Never! Why----" "Not for the woman you love?" "But, Fouchette, you don't understand,
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