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s they towered through the gloaming. Edith was pouring the after-dinner coffee. It was the first time they had dined together. On the other days she had made it a point to be back in London before nightfall; but she had so far yielded to him now as to be willing to wait for a later train. "What sort of reasons?" he urged. "Oh, I don't know," she said again, pensively, dropping a lump of sugar into his coffee-cup. She added, while passing the cup to him: "It isn't so easy for a woman to be--to be drifting about--especially with two children." "But why should you have drifted about, when you knew that at a sign from you--?" She went on as if he hadn't spoken. "And when I saw you had dismantled the house and other people were living in it--I couldn't help seeing that, you know, in driving by--" "But, good God, Edith, you wouldn't have come back to me?" She stirred her own coffee slowly. "N-no." "Does that mean no or yes?" "Oh, it means no. That is"--she reflected long--"if I _had_ gone back to you I should have been sorry." "You would have considered it a weakness--a surrender--" She nodded. "Something like that." "And you really had stopped--caring anything about me?" "It wasn't that so much as--so much as that I couldn't get over my resentment." She seemed to have found the explanatory word. "That was it," she continued, with more decision. "That's what I felt: resentment--a terrible resentment. Whatever compromise I thought of, that resentment against you for--for doing what you did--blocked the way. If I'd gone back I should have taken it with me." "But you don't seem to suffer from it now. Or am I wrong?" She answered promptly: "No; you're right. That's the strange part of it. After I married--it left me. It was as if old scores were wiped out. That isn't precisely what I felt," she hastened to add; "and yet, it was something _like_ that." "You'd got even." She shook her head doubtfully. "N-no. I don't mean that. But the past seemed to be dissolved--not to exist for me any more." "H'm! Not to exist for you any more!" "I said _seemed_. That's what bewildered me--from the beginning: things I thought I felt--or thought I didn't feel--for a while--only to find later that it wasn't--wasn't _so_." She went on with difficulty. "For instance--that day--that day at the Park--I thought that everything was killed within me. But it wasn't. It came alive again." "But not so much alive
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