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depths of his own desolateness. He said "Francey!" under his breath, ironically, as though he had uttered a child's "open-sesame!" to prove that there had never been any magic in the word. But the sound hurt him. This time he did not look back. Nor was there any reassurance to be found that night in the concrete justification of his life. He set himself down to work in vain. One ghost called up another. The room with its solemn, bloodless impedimenta became--not a monument to his success, but a Moloch, to whom everything had been sacrificed--the joy of life, its laughter, its colour--and Christine. And not only Christine. He had been sacrificed too. But he saw Christine most clearly. She sat in the big arm-chair where his patients waited for his verdict. She wore the big, floppy, black hat that she had liked best, and the grey hair hung in the old untidy wisps about her face. The chair was much too big for her. Her little feet hardly touched the ground. Her hands in the darned gloves were folded gravely over the shabby bag. He could see her looking about dimly and hear the clear, small voice. "How wonderful of you, Robert! How proud your dear father would have been!" He fidgeted with the papers on his table, rearranging, re-sorting, desperately trying not to suffer. But he would have torn the whole place down in ruins to have remembered that he had given her one day of happiness. Well, there had been that one day on Francey's hill--the picnic. She had liked that. The wood at the bottom, like a silent, deep, green pool--and Francey's arms about his shoulders, Francey's mouth on his, giving him kiss for kiss. Ghosts everywhere--and no living soul who cared now whether he failed or won through, whether he suffered or was satisfied. Only Cosgrave perhaps--poor, unlucky little Cosgrave--always hunting for happiness--breaking himself against life--going to the dogs for the sake of a rotten woman. He fell forward with his face hidden in his arms and lay there shaken by gusts of fever. They weakened gradually, and he fell asleep. And in his sleep his father drew himself up suddenly, showing his terrible white face, and clutched at little Robert Stonehouse, who skirted him and ran screaming down the dark stairs. "You can't--you can't--you're dead. I'm grown up--I'm free--I'm not like you--you can't--you can't----" But the next morning he was himself again, sure and cool-headed and
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