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s, young faces close, and hearts afire. "Sylvia, I love you." For an instant their lips clung; she had rendered him his kiss. Then, tremblingly, "It is useless ... even though I loved you." "Say it!" "I do." "Say it!" "I--I cannot! ... And it is no use--no use! I do not know myself--this way. My eyes--are wet. It is not like me; there is nothing of me in this girl you hold so closely, so confidently. ... I do care for you--how can I help it? How could any woman help it? Is not that enough?" "Until you are a bride, yes." "A bride? Stephen!--I cannot--" "You cannot help it, Sylvia." "I must! I have my way to go." "My way lies that way." "No! no! I cannot do it; it is not best for me--not best for you. ... I do care for you; you have taught me how to say it. But--you know what I have done--and mean to do, and must carry through. Then, how can you love a girl like that?" "Dear, I know the woman I love." "Silly, she is what her life has made her--material, passionately selfish, unable to renounce the root of all evil. ... Even if this--this happiness were ours always--I mean, if this madness could last our wedded life--I am not good enough, not noble enough, to forget what I might have had, and put away. ... Is it not dreadful to admit it? Do you not know that self-contempt is part of the price? ... I have no money. I know what you have. ... I asked. And it is enough for a man who remains unmarried. ... For I cannot 'make things do'; I cannot 'contrive'; I will not cling to the fringe of things, or play that heartbreaking role of the shabby expatriated on the Continent. ... No person in this world ever had enough. I tell you I could find use for every flake of metal ever mined! ... You see you do not know me. From my pretty face and figure you misjudge me. I am intelligent--not intellectual, though I might have been, might even be yet. I am cultivated, not learned; though I care for learning--or might, if I had time. ... My role in life is to mount to a security too high for any question as to my dominance. ... Can you take me there?" "There are other heights, Sylvia." "Higher?" "Yes, dear." "The spiritual; I know. I could not breathe there, if I cared to climb. ... And I have told you what I am--all silk and lace and smooth-skinned selfishness." She looked at him wistfully. "If you can change me, take me." And she rose, facing him. "I do not give you up," he said, with a savage
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