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's hand, regarded her with a new and amazed interest. "Perhaps, if you had known what sort of a woman I am, you might not have liked me to come near--_her_." And she motioned towards Thelma. "When I was young--long ago--I loved--" she laughed bitterly. "It seems a strange thing to say, does it not? Let it pass--the story of my love, my sin and shame, need not be told here! But Sigurd was my child--born in an evil hour--and I--I strove to kill him at his birth." Thelma uttered a faint cry of horror. Ulrika turned an imploring gaze upon her. "Don't hate me!" she said, her voice trembling. "Don't, for God's sake, hate me! You don't know what I have suffered! I was mad, I think, at the time--I flung the child in the Fjord to drown;--your father, Olaf Gueldmar, rescued him. I never knew that till long after;--for years the crime I had committed weighed upon my soul,--I prayed and strove with the Lord for pardon, but always, always felt that for me there, was no forgiveness. Lovisa Elsland used to call me "murderess;" she was right--I was one, or so I thought--till--till that day I met you, Froeken Thelma, on the hills with Sigurd,--and the lad fought with me." She shuddered,--and her eyes looked wild. "I recognized him--no matter how! . . . he bore my mark upon him--he was my son,--_mine_!--the deformed, crazy creature who yet had wit enough to love _you_--you, whom then I hated--but now--" She stopped and advanced a little closer to Thelma's bedside. "Now, there is nothing I would not do for you, my dear!" she said very gently. "But you will not need me any more. You understand what you have done for me,--you and your father? You have saved me by saving Sigurd,--saved _me_ from being weighed down to hell with the crime of murder! And you made the boy happy while he lived. All the rest of my days spent in your service could not pay back the worth of that good deed. And most heartily do I thank the Lord that he has mercifully permitted me to tend and comfort you in the hour of trouble--and, moreover, that He has given me strength to speak and confess my sin and unworthiness before you ere I depart. For now the trouble is past, I must remove my shadow from your joy. God bless you!--and--try to think as kindly as you can of me for--for Sigurd's sake!" Stooping, she kissed Thelma's hand,--and, before any one had time to speak a word, she left the room abruptly. When, in a few minutes, Britta went to look after her, s
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