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rbara, who came to see them some few days after Michael had been installed here, found a good deal. They had all had tea together, and afterwards Lady Ashbridge's nurse had come down to fetch her upstairs to rest. And then Aunt Barbara surprised Michael, for she came across the room to him, with her kind eyes full of tears, and kissed him. "My dear, I must say it once," she said, "and then you will know that it is always in my mind. You have behaved nobly, Michael; it's a big word, but I know no other. As for your father--" Michael interrupted her. "Oh, I don't understand him," he said. "At least, that's the best way to look at it. Let's leave him out." He paused a moment. "After all, it is a much better plan than our living all three of us at Ashbridge. It's better for my mother, and for me, and for him." "I know, but how he could consent to the better plan," she said. "Well, let us leave him out. Poor Robert! He and his golf. My dear, your father is a very ludicrous person, you know. But about you, Michael, do you think you can stand it?" He smiled at her. "Why, of course I can," he said. "Indeed, I don't think I'll accept that statement of it. It's--it's such a score to be able to be of use, you know. I can make my mother happy. Nobody else can. I think I'm getting rather conceited about it." "Yes, dear; I find you insufferable," remarked Aunt Barbara parenthetically. "Then you must just bear it. The thing is"--Michael took a moment to find the words he searched for--"the thing is I want to be wanted. Well, it's no light thing to be wanted by your mother, even if--" He sat down on the sofa by his aunt. "Aunt Barbara, how ironically gifts come," he said. "This was rather a sinister way of giving, that my mother should want me like this just as her brain was failing. And yet that failure doesn't affect the quality of her love. Is it something that shines through the poor tattered fabric? Anyhow, it has nothing to do with her brain. It is she herself, somehow, not anything of hers, that wants me. And you ask if I can stand it?" Michael with his ugly face and his kind eyes and his simple heart seemed extraordinarily charming just then to Aunt Barbara. She wished that Sylvia could have seen him then in all the unconsciousness of what he was doing so unquestioningly, or that she could have seen him as she had with his mother during the last hour. Lady Ashbridge had insisted on sitting close
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