ly by
everlasting infamy.

14. But sorrow now overpowered the joy at this success. While the
conflict was thus carried on after the withdrawal of the emperor, the
right wing of the army was exhausted by its exertions; and Anatolius, at
that time the master of the offices, was killed; Sallust the prefect was
in imminent danger, and was saved only by the exertions of his
attendant, so that at last he escaped, while Sophorius his counsellor
was killed; and certain soldiers, who, after great danger, had thrown
themselves into a neighbouring fort, were unable to rejoin the main army
till three days afterwards.

15. And while these events were taking place, Julian, lying in his tent,
thus addressed those who stood around him sorrowing and mourning: "The
seasonable moment for my surrendering this life, O comrades, has now
arrived, and, like an honest debtor, I exult in preparing to restore
what nature reclaims; not in affliction and sorrow, since I have learnt,
from the general teaching of philosophers, how much more capable of
happiness the mind is than the body; and considering that when the
better part is separated from the worse, it is a subject of joy rather
than of mourning. Reflecting, also, that there have been instances in
which even the gods have given to some persons of extreme piety, death
as the best of all rewards.

16. "And I well know that it is intended as a gift of kindness to me, to
save me from yielding to arduous difficulties, and from forgetting or
losing myself; knowing by experience that all sorrows, while they
triumph over the weak, flee before those who endure them manfully.

17. "Nor have I to repent of any actions; nor am I oppressed by the
recollection of any grave crime, either when I was kept in the shade,
and, as it were, in a corner, or after I arrived at the empire, which,
as an honour conferred on me by the gods, I have preserved, as I
believe, unstained. In civil affairs I have ruled with moderation and,
whether carrying on offensive or defensive war, have always been under
the influence of deliberate reason; prosperity, however, does not always
correspond to the wisdom of man's counsels, since the powers above
reserve to themselves the regulation of results.

18. "But always keeping in mind that the aim of a just sovereign is the
advantage and safety of his subjects, I have been always, as you know,
inclined to peace, eradicating all licentiousness--that great
corruptress of things an