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t me, or--marry me. It's a big stake for us both. For me especially. Your mocking laughter would be hard to bear in conjunction with losing you. Oh, Kate, we entered on this in a spirit of antagonism, but--but I sort of think it'll break my heart to--lose. You see, if I lose, I lose you. You, I suppose, will feel glad--if you win. It's hard." His eyes grew dark with the contemplation of his possible failure. "If I could only hope it would be otherwise. If I could only feel that you cared, in however slight a degree. It would not seem so bad. If I win I have only won you. I have not won your love. The whole thing is absurd, utterly ridiculous, and mad. I want your love, not--not--just you." Kate made no answer, and the man went on. "Do you know, Kate, as the days go on in this place, as the moment of crisis approaches, I am growing less and less of a policeman. I'm even beginning to repent of my wager with you, and but for the chance of winning you, I should be glad to abandon it. Love has been a hidden chapter in the book of life to me up till now, and now, reading it, it quite overwhelms me. Do you know I've always despised people who've put true love before all other considerations? I thought them weak imbeciles, and quite unfit. Now I am realizing how much I had to learn all the while, and have since learned." He paused, and, after a moment's thought, went on again. "Do you know a curious thought, desire, has grown up in me since our compact. I know it's utterly--utterly mad, but I can't help it. Believing now, as I do, that Bryant is no more to you than you say, I feel that when I get him--I feel I cannot, dare not keep him. I feel a crazy longing to let him go free. Do you know what that means to me? It means giving up all I have struggled for all these years. Do you know why I want to do it? Because I believe it would make you happy." Kate's eyes were turned from him. They were full of a great burning joy and love. And the love was all for this man, so recklessly desirous of her happiness. She shook her head without turning to him. "You must not," she said, in deep thrilling tones. "You must not forego the duty you owe yourself. If you capture Charlie he must pay the price. No thought of me must influence you. And I--I am ready to pay the forfeit. I made the wager with my eyes wide open--wide, wide." Fyles stirred uneasily. He meant every word he had said, and somehow he felt he was still beyond t
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