his man, and dismissed him.
"I wish to speak to Mr. Chiltern alone."
Chiltern paused in his tugging at the straps, and looked up at her.
"What's the matter with you to-day, Honora?" he asked. "You looked like
the chief mourner at a funeral all through lunch."
He was a little on edge, that she knew. He gave another tug at the boot,
and while she was still hesitating, he began again.
"I ought to apologize, I know, for bringing these people up without
notice, but I didn't suppose you'd object when you understood how
naturally it all came about. I thought a little livening up, as I said,
wouldn't, hurt us. We've had a quiet winter, to put it mildly." He
laughed a little. "I didn't have a chance to see you until this morning,
and when I went to your room they told me you'd gone out."
"Hugh," she said, laying her hand on his shoulder. "It isn't the guests.
If you want people, and they amuse you, I'm--I'm glad to have them. And
if I've seemed to be--cold to them, I'm sorry. I tried my best--I mean I
did not intend to be cold. I'll sit up all night with them, if you like.
And I didn't come to reproach you, Hugh. I'll never do that--I've got no
right to."
She passed her hand over her eyes. If she had any wrongs, if she had
suffered any pain, the fear that obsessed her obliterated all. In spite
of her disillusionment, in spite of her newly acquired ability to see him
as he was, enough love remained to scatter, when summoned, her pride to
the winds.
Having got on both boots, he stood up.
"What's the trouble, then?" he asked. And he took an instant's hold of
her chin--a habit he had--and smiled at her.
He little knew how sublime, in its unconscious effrontery, his question
was! She tried to compose herself, that she might be able to present
comprehensively to his finite masculine mind the ache of today.
"Hugh, it's that black horse." She could not bring herself to pronounce
the name Mrs. Rindge had christened him.
"What about him?" he said, putting on his waistcoat.
"Don't ride him!" she pleaded. "I--I'm afraid of him--I've been afraid of
him ever since that day.
"It may be a foolish feeling, I know. Sometimes the feelings that hurt
women most are foolish. If I tell you that if you ride him you will
torture me, I'm sure you'll grant what I ask. It's such a little thing
and it means so much--so much agony to me. I'd do anything for you--give
up anything in the world at your slightest wish. Don't ride h
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