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arriage was a mistake. She had an idea that we should do better in New York--so we came here a few months ago, and we've done decidedly worse." Justine listened with a sense of discouragement. She saw now that he did not mean to acknowledge his failing, and knowing the secretiveness of the drug-taker she decided that he was deluded enough to think he could still deceive her. "Well," he began again, with an attempt at jauntiness, "I've found out that in my profession it's a hard struggle to get on your feet again, after illness or--or any bad set-back. That's the reason I asked you to say a word for me. It's not only the money, though I need that badly--I want to get back my self-respect. With my record I oughtn't to be where I am--and you can speak for me better than any one." "Why better than the doctors you've worked with?" Justine put the question abruptly, looking him straight in the eyes. His glance dropped, and an unpleasant flush rose to his thin cheeks. "Well--as it happens, you're better situated than any one to help me to the particular thing I want." "The particular thing----?" "Yes. I understand that Mr. Langhope and Mrs. Ansell are both interested in the new wing for paying patients at Saint Christopher's. I want the position of house-physician there, and I know you can get it for me." His tone changed as he spoke, till with the last words it became rough and almost menacing. Justine felt her colour rise, and her heart began to beat confusedly. Here was the truth, then: she could no longer be the dupe of her own compassion. The man knew his power and meant to use it. But at the thought her courage was in arms. "I'm sorry--but it's impossible," she said. "Impossible--why?" She continued to look at him steadily. "You said just now that you wished to regain your self-respect. Well, you must regain it before you can ask me--or any one else--to recommend you to a position of trust." Wyant half-rose, with an angry murmur. "My self-respect? What do you mean? _I_ meant that I'd lost courage--through ill-luck----" "Yes; and your ill-luck has come through your own fault. Till you cure yourself you're not fit to cure others." He sank back into his seat, glowering at her under sullen brows; then his expression gradually changed to half-sneering admiration. "You're a plucky one!" he said. Justine repressed a movement of disgust. "I am very sorry for you," she said gravely. "I saw this
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