-Ah! I must not say where. Then he and Miss Gray left me alone, and
in the lonely darkness and silence I felt her eyes upon me."
"Dear boy," said the doctor, "you must not encourage this dread of
unseen presences. Remember, those who care for us very truly and deeply
can often make us conscious of their mental nearness, even when far
away, especially if they know we are in trouble and needing them. You
must not be surprised if you are often conscious of the nearness of the
One Woman, for I believe--and I do not say it lightly, Dalmain--I
believe her whole heart and love and life are yours."
"Good Lord!" exclaimed Garth, and springing up, strode forward
aimlessly.
The doctor caught him by the arm. In another moment he would have
fallen over Jane's feet.
"Sit down, man," said the doctor, "and listen to me. You gain nothing
by dashing about in the dark in that way. I am going to prove my words.
But you must give me your calm attention. Now listen. We are confronted
in this case by a psychological problem, and one which very likely has
not occurred to you. I want you for a moment to picture the One Man and
the One Woman facing each other in the Garden of Eden, or in the
moonlight--wherever it was--if you like better. Now will you realise
this? The effect upon a man of falling in love is to create in him a
complete unconsciousness of self. On the other hand, the effect upon a
woman of being loved and sought, and of responding to that love and
seeking, is an accession of intense self-consciousness. He, longing to
win and take, thinks of her only. She, called upon to yield and give,
has her mind turned at once upon herself. Can she meet his need? Is she
all he thinks her? Will she be able to content him completely, not only
now but in the long vista of years to come? The more natural and
unconscious of self she had been before, the harder she would be hit by
this sudden, overwhelming attack of self-consciousness."
The doctor glanced at Jane on the log six yards away. She had lifted
her clasped hands and was nodding towards him, her face radiant with
relief and thankfulness.
He felt he was on the right tack. But the blind face beside him clouded
heavily, and the cloud deepened as he proceeded.
"You see, my dear chap, I gathered from yourself she was not of the
type of feminine loveliness you were known to admire. Might she not
have feared that her appearance would, after a while, have failed to
content you?"
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