FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108  
109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   >>  
rhaps--till who could say how much the world might be benefited and helped just because they two had loved! And then she told him--sweetly, as a mother should--of all her dreams for her son--all her hopes and ambitions that were centered around his little life--the life of her son who was to redeem the land--told him how ennobled and exalted she had felt that this strong, manly Englishman was her lover, and how sure she had been that their child would have a noble mind. "Thou wilt think my thoughts, my baby Paul--thou wilt dream my dreams, and know all my ambitions and longings. Thou canst not be ignoble or base, for thou wert born of a love that makes all other unions mean and low and sordid by comparison." Then, after telling, as only she could tell it, of the bitterness of that parting in Venice, when, because of the threatening danger, from which there was no escape, she left her lover to save his life, she went on: "Dost thou know yet, when thou readest this, little Paul, with thy father's eyes--dost thou know, I wonder, the meaning of that great love which to the twain who realize it becomes a sacrament--dost understand?--a sacrament holier even than a prayer. It was even so with thy father and me--dost thou--canst thou understand? If not yet, sometime thou wilt, and thou wilt then forgive thy mother for her sin." She told of the taunts and persecutions to which she was forced to submit upon her return to her kingdom. The king and his friends had vilely commended her for her "patriotism" in finding an heir to the throne. "Napoleon would have felt honored," her husband had sneered, "if Josephine had adopted thy method of finding him the heir he desired!" But through it all, she said, she had not faltered. She had held the one thought supreme in her heart and remembered that however guilty she might be in the eyes of the world, there was a higher truth in the words of Mrs. Browning, "God trusts me with a child," and had dared to pray. "To pray for strength and grace and wisdom to give thee birth, my baby, and to make thee all that thou shouldst be--to develop thee into the man I and thy father would have thee become. I was not only giving an heir to the throne of my realm. I was giving a son to the husband of my soul. But the world did not know that. Whatever it might suspect, it could actually know--nothing! The s
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108  
109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   >>  



Top keywords:

father

 
husband
 

throne

 

finding

 

mother

 

understand

 

sacrament

 

giving

 

ambitions

 

dreams


taunts

 

persecutions

 

Napoleon

 

kingdom

 

return

 

honored

 

forced

 

sneered

 

commended

 

patriotism


forgive

 

vilely

 

submit

 

friends

 

higher

 

shouldst

 

wisdom

 

strength

 

develop

 

Whatever


suspect

 

trusts

 
faltered
 
desired
 

Josephine

 

adopted

 

method

 

thought

 

Browning

 

guilty


supreme

 

remembered

 

Englishman

 

ennobled

 

exalted

 

strong

 

ignoble

 

longings

 

thoughts

 
redeem