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which a few minutes ago he had listened greedily were specious, futile, utterly false. That sort of argument might do for other men--might do for every other man in the wide world--but it would not do for _him_, William Dale. Its acceptance would knock the very ground from under his feet. For, if there could be any excuse, why had he killed Everard Barradine? XXX Then Dale lived again for the hundred thousandth time in the thoughts and passions of that distant period. The forest glade grew dim, vanished. He was lying on the grass in a London park, and Mavis' confession rang through the buzzing of his ears, through the chaos of his mind. It seemed that the whole of his small imagined world had gone to pieces, and the immensity of the real world had been left to him in exchange--crushing him with an idea of its unexplored vastness, of its many countries, its myriad races. And yet, big as it all was, it could not provide breathing space for that man and himself. Soon this became an oppressive certainty. Life under the new conditions had been rendered unendurable. And then there grew up the one solid determination, that he must stand face to face with his enemy and call him to account. It must _at last_ be man to man. He must tell the man what he thought of him, call him filthy names, strip him of every shred of dignity--and strike him. A few blows of scorn might suffice--a backhander across the snout, a few swishes with a stick, a kick behind when he turned. He was too rottenly weak a thing to fight with. His mind refused to go further than this. However deeply and darkly it was working below the surface of consciousness, it gave him no further directions than this. He got rid of his wife. That was the first move in the game--anyhow. He did not want to think about her now; she would be dealt with again later on. At present he wished to concentrate all his attention on the other one. He took a bed for himself in a humbler and cheaper house farther west, a little nearer to the house of his enemy; and almost all that day he spent in thinking how and where he should obtain the meeting he longed for. He understood at once that it would be hopeless to attempt such an interview at Grosvenor Place. In imagination he saw himself escorted by servants to that tank-like room at the back of the mansion--the room where the man had treated him as dirt, where his first instinct of distrust had been aroused, wh
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