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d the satisfaction of seeing despair melt the set mockery of Spurlock's mouth. "You begin to have doubts, eh? A handful of money between you, and nothing else. There are only a few jobs over here for a man of your type; and even these are more or less hopeless if you haven't trained mechanical ability." Then he became merciful. "But McClintock agrees to take you both--because he's as big a fool as I am. But I give you this warning, and let it sink in. You will be under the eye of the best friend I have; and if you do not treat that child for what she is--an innocent angel--I promise to hunt you across the wide world and kill you with bare hands." Spurlock's glance shot up, flaming again. "And on my part, I shall not lift a hand to defend myself." "I wish I could have foreseen." "That is to say, you wish you had let me die?" "That was the thought." This frankness rather subdued Spurlock. His shoulders relaxed and his gaze wavered. "Perhaps that would have been best." "But what, in God's name, possessed you? You have already wrecked your own life and now you've wrecked hers. She doesn't love you; she hasn't the least idea what it means beyond what she has read in novels. The world isn't real yet; she hasn't comparisons by which to govern her acts. I am a physician first, which gives the man in me a secondary part. You have just passed through rather a severe physical struggle; just as previously to your collapse you had gone through some terrific mental strain. Your mind is still subtly sick. The man in me would like to break every bone in your body, but the physician understands that you don't actually realize what you have done. But in a little while you will awake; and if there is a spark of manhood in you, you will be horrified at this day's work." Spurlock closed his eyes. Expiation. He felt the first sting of the whip. But there was no feeling of remorse; there was only the sensation of exaltation. "If you two loved each other," went on the doctor, "there would be something to stand on--a reason why for this madness. I can fairly understand Ruth; but you...!" "Have you ever been so lonely that the soul of you cried in anguish? Twenty-four hours a day to think in, alone?... Perhaps I did not want to go mad from loneliness. I will tell you this much, because you have been kind. It is true that I do not love Ruth; but I swear to you, before the God of my fathers, that she shall never know it!"
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