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the Duchess. "I did not know why exactly. It was not affection or attraction. It was a sort of resentment of the beastly unfairness of things. The bottomless gulf seemed to yawn in her path when she was nothing but a baby. Everything was being tossed into it before she had taken a step. I began to keep an eye on her and prevent things--or assist them. It was more fury than benevolence, but it has gone on for years--behind the shut door." "Are you quite sure you have been entirely free from all affection for her?" The Duchess asked the question impersonally though with a degree of interest. "I think so. I am less sure that I have the power to feel what is called 'affection' for any one. I think that I have felt something nearer it for Donal--and for you--than for any one else. But when the child talked to me in the wood I felt for the first time that I wished her to know that my relation to her mother was not the reason for her hating me which she had believed." "She shall be made to understand," said the Duchess. "She must," he said, "_because of the rest_." The last four words were, as it were, italicised. Now, she felt, she was probably about to hear the chief thing he had been approaching. So she waited attentively. "Behind a door has been shut another thing," he said and he endeavoured to say it with his usual detached rigidity of calm, but did not wholly succeed. "It is the outcome of the generations and the centuries at present diminishing in value and dignity. The past having had its will of me and the present and future having gripped me--if I had had a son--" As if in a flash she saw as he lingered on the words that he was speaking of a thing of which he had secretly thought often and much, though he had allowed no human being to suspect it. She had not suspected it herself. In a secretive, intense way he had passionately desired a son. "If you had had a son--" she repeated. "He would have stood for both--the past and the future--at the beginning of a New World," he ended. He said it with such deliberate meaning that the magnitude of his possible significance caused her to draw a sudden breath. "Is it going to be a New World?" she said. "It cannot be the old one. I don't take it upon myself to describe the kind of world it will be. That will depend upon the men and women who build it. Those who were born during the last few years--those who are about to be born now." Then she k
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