seeing arms shining round about the Forum,
he was so confounded that he could hardly begin his speech, for the
trembling of his body and hesitancy of his tongue; whereas Milo,
meantime, was so bold and intrepid in his demeanor, that he disdained
either to let his hair grow, or to put on the mourning habit. And this,
indeed, seems to have been the principal cause of his condemnation. And
Cicero was thought not so much to have shown timidity for himself, as
anxiety about his friend.

When the outbreak between Caesar and Pompey came, Cicero wavered
painfully between both, for he writes in his epistles, "To which side
should I turn? Pompey has the fair and honorable plea for war; and
Caesar, on the other hand, has managed his affairs better, and is more
able to secure himself and his friends. So that I know whom I should
fly from, not whom I should fly to." But when Trebatius, one of Caesar's
friends, by letter signified to him that Caesar thought it was his most
desirable course to join his side, but if he considered himself too
old a man for this, he would do better to retire into Greece, and stay
quietly there, out of the way of either party, Cicero, wondering that
Caesar had not written himself, replied angrily that he should do
nothing unbecoming his past life.

But as soon as Caesar had marched into Spain, he immediately sailed away
to join Pompey. And he was welcomed by all but Cato; who, taking him
privately aside, chid him for coming to Pompey. As for himself, he said,
it would have been indecent to forsake that part in the commonwealth
which he had chosen from the beginning; but Cicero might have been
more useful to his country and friends, if, remaining neutral, he had
attended and used his influence to moderate the result, instead of
coming hither to make himself, without reason or necessity, an enemy to
Caesar, and a partner in such great dangers. By this language, Cicero's
feelings were altered, and partly, also, because Pompey made no great
use of him. Although he was himself really the cause of it, by his
not denying that he was sorry he had come, by his deprecating Pompey's
resources, finding fault underhand with his counsels, and continually
indulging in jests and sarcastic remarks on his fellow-soldiers.

After the battle of Pharsalia was over, at which he was not present for
want of health, and Pompey had fled, Cato, having considerable
forces and a great fleet at Dyrrachium, would have had Cicero
co