ow and again, so you can write to 23 Red Lion
Square till you hear further. It's no use sending for me,
for I _won't come_;--not till I know that you think better
of your present ways of going on. I don't know whether you
have the power to get the police to come after me, but I
advise you not. If you do anything of that sort the people
about shall hear of it.
And now, Tom, I want to say one word to you. You can't
think it's a happiness to me going away from my own home
where I have lived respectable so many years, or leaving
you whom I've loved with all my whole heart. It makes me
very very unhappy, so that I could sit and cry all day if
it weren't for pride and because the servants shouldn't
see me. To think that it has come to this after all! Oh,
Tom, I wonder whether you ever think of the old days when
we used to be so happy in Keppel Street! There wasn't
anybody then that you cared to see, except me;--I do
believe that. And you'd always come home then, and I never
thought bad of it though you wouldn't have a word to speak
to me for hours. Because you were doing your duty. But you
ain't doing your duty now, Tom. You know you ain't doing
your duty when you never dine at home, and come home so
cross with wine that you curse and swear, and have that
nasty woman coming to see you at your chambers. Don't tell
me it's about law business. Ladies don't go to barristers'
chambers about law business. All that is done by
attorneys. I've heard you say scores of times that you
never would see people themselves, and yet you see her.
Oh, Tom, you have made me so wretched! But I can forgive
it all, and will never say another word about it to fret
you, if you'll only promise me to have nothing more to
say to that woman. Of course I'd like you to come home to
dinner, but I'd put up with that. You've made your own way
in the world, and perhaps it's only right you should enjoy
it. I don't think so much dining at the club can be good
for you, and I'm afraid you'll have gout, but I don't
want to bother you about that. Send me a line to say that
you won't see her any more, and I'll come back to Harley
Street at once. If you can't bring yourself to do that,
you--and--I--must--part. I can put up with a great deal,
but I can't put up with that;--_and won't_.
Your affectionate loving wife,
C. FURNIVAL.
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