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e're not quarrelling about it, Kate and I, _yet."_ "I only meant," Mrs. Stringham explained, "that I don't see what Mrs. Condrip would gain." "By her being able to tell Kate?" Milly thought. "I only meant that I don't see what I myself should gain." "But it will have to come out--that he knows you both--some time." Milly scarce assented. "Do you mean when he comes back?" "He'll find you both here, and he can hardly be looked to, I take it, to 'cut' either of you for the sake of the other." This placed the question at last on a basis more distinctly cheerful. "I might get at him somehow beforehand," the girl suggested; "I might give him what they call here the tip--that he's not to know me when we meet. Or, better still, I mightn't be here at all." "Do you want to run away from him?" It was, oddly enough, an idea Milly seemed half to accept. "I don't know _what_ I want to run away from!" It dispelled, on the spot--something, to the elder woman's ear, in the sad, sweet sound of it--any ghost of any need of explaining. The sense was constant for her that their relation was as if afloat, like some island of the south, in a great warm sea that made, for every conceivable chance, a margin, an outer sphere of general emotion; and the effect of the occurrence of anything in particular was to make the sea submerge the island, the margin flood the text. The great wave now for a moment swept over. "I'll go anywhere else in the world you like." But Milly came up through it. "Dear old Susie--how I do work you!" "Oh, this is nothing yet." "No indeed--to what it will be." "You're not--and it's vain to pretend," said dear old Susie, who had been taking her in, "as sound and strong as I insist on having you." "Insist, insist--the more the better. But the day I _look_ as sound and strong as that, you know," Milly went on--"on that day I shall be just sound and strong enough to take leave of you sweetly for ever. That's where one is," she continued thus agreeably to embroider, "when even one's _most_ 'beaux moments' aren't such as to qualify, so far as appearance goes, for anything gayer than a handsome cemetery. Since I've lived all these years as if I were dead, I shall die, no doubt, as if I were alive--which will happen to be as you want me. So, you see," she wound up, "you'll never really know where I am. Except indeed when I'm gone; and then you'll only know where I'm not." "I'd die _for_ you," said
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