dy to bear,
that this tremendous possibility she could not bear so much as
to look at; she left it a one side; and it can hardly be
numbered among her recognized causes of trouble.
The day wore to an end. The evening and the sea-breeze came
again. The lamps were lit and the table dressed with the
salver and tea-urn. And Elizabeth was thankful the day was
over; and waited impatiently for her friend to make his
appearance.
She thought he looked thoughtfuller than ever when he came.
That might have been fancy.
"I don't know, Miss Elizabeth," he said, taking her hand as he
had done in the morning, and answering her face. "We must wait
yet. -- How have you borne the day?"
"I have borne it by the help of your book," she said looking
down at it and trembling.
"You could have no better help," he said with a little sigh,
as he turned away to the table, -- "except that of the Author
of it."
The tea was very silent, for even Winthrop did not talk much;
and very sad, for Elizabeth could hardly hold her head up.
"Mr. Winthrop," she said when he rose, -- "can you give me a
minute or two before you go? -- I want to ask you a question."
"Certainly," -- he said; and waited, both standing, while she
opened his bible and found the place he had shewed her in the
morning. She shewed it to him now.
"This -- I don't quite understand it. -- I see what is spoken
of, and the need of it, -- but -- how can I make it my own?"
She looked up as she put the question, with most earnest eyes,
and lips that only extreme determination kept from giving way.
He looked at her, and at his book.
"By giving your trust to the Maker of the promise."
"How? --"
"The same unquestioning faith and dependence that you would
give to any sure and undoubted refuge of human strength."
Elizabeth looked down and pressed her hands close together
upon her breast. She knew so well how to give that! -- so
little how to give the other.
"Do you understand what Christ requires of those who would
follow him?"
"No," she said looking up again, -- "not clearly -- hardly at
all."
"One is -- that you give up everything, even in thought, that
is contrary to his authority."
He was still, and so was she, both looking at each other.
"That is what is meant by repentance. The other thing is, --
that you trust yourself for all your wants -- from the
forgiveness of sin, to the supply of this moment's need, -- to
the strength and love of Jesus Chri
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