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e who has any hair left on the top of his head." Her flippancy, her shallowness left Laura for a minute in doubt as to how she should accept her words. Then rising from her chair, she laid her restraining hands on Gerty's shoulders. "My darling, do be careful," she entreated. The shoulders beneath her hands rose in an indifferent shrug. "Oh, I've been careful," laughed Gerty, "but it isn't any fun. Perry isn't careful and he gets a great deal more out of life than I do." "A great deal more of what?" demanded Laura. For an instant Gerty thought attentively, while the mocking gayety changed to a serious hardness upon her face. "More forgetfulness," she answered presently. "That's what we all want isn't it? Call it by what name you will--religion, dissipation, morphia--what we are all trying to do is to intoxicate ourselves into forgetting that life is life." "But it isn't what I want," insisted Laura, "I want to feel everything and to know that I feel it." "Well, you're different," rejoined Gerty. "What I'm after is to be happy, and I care very little what form it takes or what kind of happiness mine may be. I've ceased to be particular about the details even--if Billy Lancaster is my happiness I'll devour him and never waste an idle moment in regret. Why should I?--Perry doesn't." "So there's an end to Perry?" "An end! Oh, you delicious child, there's only a beginning. Perry's cult is the inaccessible--present him with all the virtues and he will run away; ignore him utterly and he'll make your life insupportable by his presence. For the last twenty-four hours I assure you he's stuck to me--like a briar." "Then it's all for Perry--I mean this Billy?" asked Laura. Gerty shook her head while her brows grew slowly together in an expression of angry bitterness. "It was in the beginning," she responded, "but I'm not sure that it is now--not entirely at any rate. The boy's worship is incense to my nostrils, I suppose. Yes, I've always been a monument of indifference to men, but I confess to an increasing enthusiasm for Billy's looks." "An enthusiasm which Perry doesn't share?" The laughter in Gerty's voice was a little sad. "I declare it really hurts me that I've ceased to notice. The poor silly man offered to give up his golf to go motoring with me yesterday afternoon, and I went and was absolutely bored to death. I couldn't help thinking how much more interesting Billy is." Her veil was a
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