him as I had liked his father, but I hated them both
when I saw that they were going to make you unhappy, because I love
you, I idolize you, I love you as my daughter. I have nothing dearer
than you. I have seen you grow. No hour passes but I think of you;
I dream of you; you are my only joy."
And Father Damaso began to weep like a child.
"Well, then, if you love me do not make me eternally unhappy. He no
longer lives; I want to be a nun."
The old man rested his head on his hand.
"To be a nun, to be a nun!" he repeated. "You do not know, my child,
the life, the misery, which is hidden behind the walls of the
convent. You do not know it! I prefer a thousand times to see you
unhappy in the world than to see you unhappy in the cloister. Here
your complaints can be heard, there you will have only the walls. You
are beautiful, very beautiful, and you were not born for it, you were
not born to be the bride of Christ! Believe me, my child, time will
blot it all out. Later you will forget, you will love your husband
... Linares."
"Either the convent or ... death!" repeated Maria Clara.
"The convent, the convent or death!" exclaimed Father Damaso. "Maria,
I am already old, I will not be able to watch you or your happiness
much longer.... Choose another course, seek another love, another
young man, whoever he may be, but not the convent."
"The convent or death!"
"My God, my God!" cried the priest, covering his head with his
hands. "Thou punisheth me. So be it! But watch over my child."
And turning to the young woman: "You want to be a nun? You shall be
one. I do not want you to die."
Maria Clara took his two hands, clasped them in her own and kissed
them as she knelt.
"Godfather, my godfather!" she repeated.
Immediately, Father Damaso went out, sad, with drooping head and
sighing.
"God, O God! Thou existeth, for Thou punisheth. But avenge Thyself
on me and do not harm the innocent. Save my child!"
NOTES
[1] Street in Manila.
[2] Archbishop and author of theological works.
[3] Roof of the first story used as a veranda.
[4] Petty governor, the highest local official.
[5] Trellis work made of reeds.
[6] Local commander of the Civil Guard.
[7] A narrow canoe.
[8] A drink made of honey and ginger.
[9] A light, early breakfast.
[10] A native fruit.
[11] A Chinese gambling game.
[12] A little white, pearl-like substance sometimes found in the
cacao tree, which is
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