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came to his lips, but as he looked into the face before him, he felt it would be better left unsaid. Instead, he voiced the question that came uppermost to his mind. "Why don't you leave--this--and go to school?" he asked abruptly. "You have an equal chance with the rest. We're each what we make ourselves." Landers broke in on him quickly. "We all like to talk of equality, but in reality we know there is none. You say 'leave' without the slightest knowledge of what in my case it means." He gave the collegian a quick look. "I'm talking as though I'd known you all my life." A question was in his voice. "I'm listening," said the man, simply. "I'll tell you what it means, then. It means that I divorce myself from everything of Now; that I unlive my past life; that I leave my companionship with dumb things--horses and cattle and birds--and I love them, for they are natural. This seems childish to you; but live with them for years, more than with human beings, and you will understand. "More than all else it means that I must become as a stranger to my family; and they depend upon me. My friends of now would not be my friends when I returned; they would be as I am to you now--a thing to be patronized." He hesitated, and then went recklessly on: "I've told you so much, I may as well tell you everything. On the next farm to ours there's a little, brown-eyed girl--Faith's her name--and--and--" His new-found flow of words failed, and he ended in unconscious apostrophe: "To think of growing out of her life, and strange to my father and mother--it's all so selfish, so hideously selfish!" "I think I understand," said the soft voice at his side. They drove on without a word, the frost-bound road ringing under the horses' feet, the stars above smiling sympathetic indulgence at this last repetition of the old, old tale of man. The gentle voice of the collegian broke the silence. "You say it would be selfish to leave. Is it not right, though, and of necessity, that we think first of self?" He paused, then boldly sounded the keynote of the universe. "Is not selfishness the first law of nature?" he asked. Landers opened his lips to answer, but closed them without a word. III Brown, magnetic Fall, with her overflow of animal activity, shaded gradually into the white of lethic Winter; then in slow dissolution relinquished supremacy to the tans and mottled greens of Springtime. Unsatisfied as m
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