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s for us to be talking like this? We'll be taking it seriously, and then--" The woman made a swift gesture of protest. "Don't. Let's be honest--with each other, at least. I'm tired of pretending to be other than I am. Why did you say 'being true to my husband'? You know it's mockery. Is it being true to live with a man I hate because man's law demands it, rather than true to you whom Nature's law sanctions? Don't speak to me of society's right and wrong! I despise it. There is no other tribunal than Nature, and Nature says 'Come.'" The man sat down slowly and dropped his head wearily into his hands. "I say again, I cannot. I respect you too much. We're intoxicated now being together. In an hour, after we're separate--" She broke in on him passionately. "Do you think a woman says what I have said on the spur of the moment? Do you think I merely happened to see you to-day, merely happened to say what I've said? You know better. This has been coming for months. I fought it hard at first; with convention, with your idea of right and wrong. Now I laugh at them both. Life is life, and short, and beyond is darkness. Think what atoms we are; and we struggle so hard. Our life that seems to us so short--and so long! A thousand, perhaps ten thousand such, end to end, and we have the life of a world. And what is that? A cycle! A thing self-created, self-destructive: then of human life--nothingness. Oh, it's humorous! Our life, a ten thousandth part of that nothingness; and so full of tiny--great struggles and worries!" She was silent a moment, her throat trembling, a multitude of expressions shifting swiftly on her face. "Do you believe in God?" she questioned suddenly. "I hardly know. There must be--" "Don't you suppose, then, He's laughing at us now?" She hesitated again and then went on, almost unconsciously. "I had a dream a few nights ago." The voice was low and very soft. "It seemed I was alone in a desert place, and partial darkness was about me. I was conscious only of listening and wondering, for out of the shadow came sounds of human suffering. I waited with my heart beating strangely. Gradually the voices grew louder, until I caught the meaning of occasional words and distinctly saw coming toward me the figure of a man and a woman bearing a great burden, a load so great that both together bent beneath the weight and sweat stood thick upon their brows. The edges of the burden were very sharp so that th
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