gination raised up an image of pleasure,
than it is sure to conjure up one of distress and gloom; these two
antagonistic ideas instantly commence a struggle in my mind, and the
gloomy one generally, I may say invariably, prevails. How is it possible
that I should be a happy man?

"It has invariably been so with me from the earliest period that I can
remember; the first playthings that were given me caused me for a few
minutes excessive pleasure; they were pretty and glittering; presently,
however, I became anxious and perplexed; I wished to know their history,
how they were made, and what of--were the materials precious; I was not
satisfied with their outward appearance. In less than an hour I had
broken the playthings in an attempt to discover what they were made of.

"When I was eight years of age my uncle the baronet, who was also my
godfather, sent me a pair of Norway hawks, with directions for managing
them; he was a great fowler. Oh, how rejoiced was I with the present
which had been made me, my joy lasted for at least five minutes; I would
let them breed, I would have a house of hawks; yes, that I
would--but--and here came the unpleasant idea--suppose they were to fly
away, how very annoying! Ah, but, said hope, there's little fear of
that; feed them well and they will never fly away, or if they do they
will come back, my uncle says so; so sunshine triumphed for a little
time. Then the strangest of all doubts came into my head; I doubted the
legality of my tenure of these hawks; how did I come by them? why, my
uncle gave them to me, but how did they come into his possession? what
right had he to them? after all, they might not be his to give.--I passed
a sleepless night. The next morning I found that the man who brought the
hawks had not departed. 'How came my uncle by these hawks?' I anxiously
inquired. 'They were sent to him from Norway, master, with another
pair.' 'And who sent them?' 'That I don't know, master, but I suppose
his honour can tell you.' I was even thinking of scrawling a letter to
my uncle to make inquiry on this point, but shame restrained me, and I
likewise reflected that it would be impossible for him to give my mind
entire satisfaction; it is true he could tell who sent him the hawks, but
how was he to know how the hawks came into the possession of those who
sent them to him, and by what right they possessed them or the parents of
the hawks. In a word, I wanted a clear valid titl