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d been a true wife to him before that?" "Yes, in all that concerned the code." "Well?--Well, was not that enough? She did what she could, as long as she could." She leaned far back in the chair, her eyes half shut. "Don't you think--as a woman, not as a theorist--that Mrs. Anson might at least have come to him when he was dying?" "It would only have been uncomfortable for her. She had no part in his life; she could not feel with him. She could do nothing." "But suppose she had loved him? By that memory, then, of the time when they took each other for better or for worse, until death should part them?" "Death did part them when the code banished him; when he passed from a free world into a cage. Besides, we are talking about people marrying, not about their loving." "I will admit," I said, with a little raw irony, "that I was not exact in definition." Here I got a glimpse into her nature which rendered after events not so marvellous to me as they might seem to others. She thought a moment quite indolently, and then continued: "You make one moralise like George Eliot. Marriage is a condition, but love must be an action. The one is a contract, the other is complete possession, a principle--that is, if it exists at all. I do not know." She turned the rings round mechanically on her finger; and among them was a wedding-ring! Her voice had become low and abstracted, and now she seemed to have forgotten my presence, and was looking out upon the humming darkness round us, through which now and again there rang a boatswain's whistle, or the loud laugh of Blackburn, telling of a joyous hour in the smoking-room. I am now about to record an act of madness, of folly, on my part. I suppose most men have such moments of temptation, but I suppose, also, that they act more sensibly and honourably than I did then. Her hand had dropped gently on the chair-arm, near to my own, and though our fingers did not touch, I felt mine thrilled and impelled toward hers. I do not seek to palliate my action. Though the man I believed to be her husband was below, I yielded myself to an imagined passion for her. In that moment I was a captive. I caught her hand and kissed it hotly. "But you might know what love is," I said. "You might learn--learn of me. You--" Abruptly and with surprise she withdrew her hand, and, without any visible emotion save a quicker pulsation of her breast, which might have been indignation, spoke. "Bu
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