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e trench was stormed and taken, owing to his personal daring and impetus and to the affection and confidence he inspired.... We hear it continually said of our officers and men that 'they're all the same,' and I daresay as far as pluck goes they are. But, if I may say so, we all felt that your son had something that we haven't got...." * * * * * Michael lay awake in the bed that had been his brother's marriage bed. The low white ceiling sagged and bulged above him. For three nights the room had been as if Nicky and Veronica had never gone from it. They had compelled him to think of them. They had lain where he lay, falling asleep in each other's arms. The odd thing had been that his acute and vivid sense of them had in no way troubled him. It had been simply there like some exquisite atmosphere, intensifying his peace. He had had the same feeling he always had when Veronica was with him. He had liked to lie with his head on their pillow, to touch what they had touched, to look at the same things in the same room, to go in and out through the same doors over the same floors, remembering their hands and feet and eyes, and saying to himself: "They did this and this"; or, "That must have pleased them." It ought to have been torture to him; and he could not imagine why it was not. And now, on this fourth night, he had no longer that sense of Nicky and Veronica together. The room had emptied itself of its own memory and significance. He was aware of nothing but the bare, spiritual space between him and Nicky. He lay contemplating it steadily and without any horror. He thought: "This ends it. Of course I shall go out now. I might have known that this would end it. _He_ knew." He remembered how Nicky had come to him in his room that night in August. He could see himself sitting on the side of his bed, half-dressed, and Nicky standing over him, talking. Nicky had taken it for granted even then that he would go out some time. He remembered how he had said, "Not yet." He thought: "Of course; this must have been what he meant." And presently he fell asleep, exhausted and at the same time appeased. * * * * * It was morning. Michael's sleep dragged him down; it drowned and choked him as he struggled to wake. Something had happened. He would know what it was when he came clear out of this drowning. Now he remembered. Nicky was killed. Last
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