he. 'But you may be mistaken,' said I. 'No, no,' says he, 'how can
you think so? I must not be denied, I can't be denied'; and with that
he fell to kissing me so violently, I could not get rid of him.

There was a bed in the room, and we were walking to and again, eager in
the discourse; at last he takes me by surprise in his arms, and threw
me on the bed and himself with me, and holding me fast in his arms, but
without the least offer of any indecency, courted me to consent with
such repeated entreaties and arguments, protesting his affection, and
vowing he would not let me go till I had promised him, that at last I
said, 'Why, you resolve not to be denied, indeed, I can't be denied.'
'Well, well,' said I, and giving him a slight kiss, 'then you shan't be
denied,' said I; 'let me get up.'

He was so transported with my consent, and the kind manner of it, that
I began to think once he took it for a marriage, and would not stay for
the form; but I wronged him, for he gave over kissing me, and then
giving me two or three kisses again, thanked me for my kind yielding to
him; and was so overcome with the satisfaction and joy of it, that I
saw tears stand in his eyes.

I turned from him, for it filled my eyes with tears too, and I asked
him leave to retire a little to my chamber. If ever I had a grain of
true repentance for a vicious and abominable life for twenty-four years
past, it was then. On, what a felicity is it to mankind, said I to
myself, that they cannot see into the hearts of one another! How happy
had it been for me if I had been wife to a man of so much honesty, and
so much affection from the beginning!

Then it occurred to me, 'What an abominable creature am I! and how is
this innocent gentleman going to be abused by me! How little does he
think, that having divorced a whore, he is throwing himself into the
arms of another! that he is going to marry one that has lain with two
brothers, and has had three children by her own brother! one that was
born in Newgate, whose mother was a whore, and is now a transported
thief! one that has lain with thirteen men, and has had a child since
he saw me! Poor gentleman!' said I, 'what is he going to do?' After
this reproaching myself was over, it following thus: 'Well, if I must
be his wife, if it please God to give me grace, I'll be a true wife to
him, and love him suitably to the strange excess of his passion for me;
I will make him amends if possible, by w