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ld be a splendid thing to do. With this in sight, her interference took on an appearance of dignified philanthropy. "Will you let me help you?" she asked wistfully; "be your friend? I have money; I would love to do what I can. I have deep sympathy with you and--I am very lonely and sad myself. I have recently lost my husband--I have no one." Joyce continued to hold her visitor with that solemn, intense glance. "You loved your--husband--very much?" Ruth winced. She could hardly resent the curiosity, but she stiffened. "Of course. But if I had not, I should have been--lonely and sad. It is a relationship that cannot be dissolved either by death or in any way without causing pain and a deep sense of loss." "Oh, yes, it can." Joyce spoke rapidly. "The loss may mean--life to you. It may take fear away and a hideous loathing. It may let you be yourself, the self that can breathe and learn to love goodness." This outburst surprised and confused Ruth Dale. The expression of face, voice and language swept away the sense of unreality and detachment. Here was a vital trouble. A tangible human call. It might be that she, instead of Ralph Drew or Constance, or any other person, might touch and rescue this girl who was finding herself among the ruins of her life. Ruth Dale was no common egotist, but her charm and magnetism had often taken her close to others' needs, and she was eager, always, to answer any demand made upon her. "Joyce," she said softly, "please let me call you that. You see, by that name I have always heard you called, and Constance Drew and I felt we knew you before we saw you. I believe you have suffered horribly. All women suffer in an unhappy marriage--but you suffered doubly because you have always been capable of better things, perhaps, than you have ever had. You do not mind my speaking very plainly?" "No. I want you to." "But you cannot find happiness--I know I am right about this--by taking from life what does not really belong to you. Do you see what I mean?" "No, but go on; I may see soon." The quiet face opposite made Ruth Dale more and more uncomfortable. She had, for a moment, forgotten the possibility of Gaston's return; the yellow gown was losing its irritating power; she truly had a great and consuming desire to be of service to this woman who was following her words with feverish intensity, but she was ill at ease as she proceeded. "If we have bungled our lives, made grav
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