ink to do so for good or for evil, is this--it is a thing I have
not breathed to a living soul as yet--I believe that if I don't give
my word, he'll go out of his mind."
"Really, do ye?" said Gabriel, gravely.
"I believe this," she continued, with reckless frankness; "and Heaven
knows I say it in a spirit the very reverse of vain, for I am grieved
and troubled to my soul about it--I believe I hold that man's future
in my hand. His career depends entirely upon my treatment of him. O
Gabriel, I tremble at my responsibility, for it is terrible!"
"Well, I think this much, ma'am, as I told you years ago," said Oak,
"that his life is a total blank whenever he isn't hoping for 'ee; but
I can't suppose--I hope that nothing so dreadful hangs on to it as
you fancy. His natural manner has always been dark and strange, you
know. But since the case is so sad and odd-like, why don't ye give
the conditional promise? I think I would."
"But is it right? Some rash acts of my past life have taught me that
a watched woman must have very much circumspection to retain only a
very little credit, and I do want and long to be discreet in this!
And six years--why we may all be in our graves by that time, even if
Mr. Troy does not come back again, which he may not impossibly do!
Such thoughts give a sort of absurdity to the scheme. Now, isn't
it preposterous, Gabriel? However he came to dream of it, I cannot
think. But is it wrong? You know--you are older than I."
"Eight years older, ma'am."
"Yes, eight years--and is it wrong?"
"Perhaps it would be an uncommon agreement for a man and woman to
make: I don't see anything really wrong about it," said Oak, slowly.
"In fact the very thing that makes it doubtful if you ought to marry
en under any condition, that is, your not caring about him--for I
may suppose--"
"Yes, you may suppose that love is wanting," she said shortly. "Love
is an utterly bygone, sorry, worn-out, miserable thing with me--for
him or any one else."
"Well, your want of love seems to me the one thing that takes away
harm from such an agreement with him. If wild heat had to do wi'
it, making ye long to over-come the awkwardness about your husband's
vanishing, it mid be wrong; but a cold-hearted agreement to oblige a
man seems different, somehow. The real sin, ma'am in my mind, lies
in thinking of ever wedding wi' a man you don't love honest and
true."
"That I'm willing to pay the penalty of," said B
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