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ity of one's life to be wasted in such a barren pastime as five years in solitary confinement. When he began talking about a comfortable married life in a civilized community, he noticed Aron growing distraught. "Why does talk of marriage so disturb you?" he asked. Aron looked at him with a sneer in his eyes, "You must know, you check your victims before you begin your Judas acts." With a rueful grin, the agent replied, "That is one place our agents can't penetrate, your Personnel Records Office. You, being a hard man to know, have made very few acquaintances that we could approach to get your history." Silence. Then Aron said, "All right, here's a bone I'll toss you. You may use it, I don't give a damn! "My wife died five days ago on this planet." He said it with vehemence, probably imagining by some twist of thought that he was shocking, hurting the enemy agent, whereas he actually was deliberately shocking himself. Masochism. "Your wife?" the agent was amazed. "I didn't know your TA observers took wives with them." "I'll bet you didn't know. Though, most of them don't, come to think of it." The agent relaxed, lighted a cigarette--an ancient habit that cropped up in all eras. "Men can take it," he began quietly. "Women are different. They can take it if they want to, but it's hard to find the right woman; and even then she must want to take it by being with the man she loves, or perhaps it is psychological--martyring themselves to gain a subtle control of that man, which they all want to do. "When you get a woman who can't, or doesn't want to take it, she can pull a beautiful crack-up. Without friends to appreciate her martyrdom, with a husband who refuses to acknowledge it, she sometimes uses the supreme martyrdom to gain recognition." "Instinct tells me to slug you in the teeth," Aron said, "but apathy forbids me." "Couldn't it be that you refuse to slug me because you want me to keep talking? Because you recognize the truth, that your wife committed suicide because of the loneliness and now your devotion to state has become meaningless? 'The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away' was the old maxim, but 'the State only taketh away' is the new." There was more talk and some drinking, for the agent had conveniently brought some choice liquor. The next morning, after they had arisen from where they had fallen asleep in a stupor, the agent proposed his plan. With the disgust and despai
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