ifted on a breath of wind. But Billy went softly forward, slow and
willing, lifting his pinched-up mouth implicitly to be kissed. Ursula
watched the full, gathered lips of the man gently touch those of the
boy, so gently. Then Birkin lifted his fingers and touched the boy's
round, confiding cheek, with a faint touch of love. Neither spoke.
Billy seemed angelic like a cherub boy, or like an acolyte, Birkin was
a tall, grave angel looking down to him.
'Are you going to be kissed?' Ursula broke in, speaking to the little
girl. But Dora edged away like a tiny Dryad that will not be touched.
'Won't you say good-night to Mr Birkin? Go, he's waiting for you,' said
Ursula. But the girl-child only made a little motion away from him.
'Silly Dora, silly Dora!' said Ursula.
Birkin felt some mistrust and antagonism in the small child. He could
not understand it.
'Come then,' said Ursula. 'Let us go before mother comes.'
'Who'll hear us say our prayers?' asked Billy anxiously.
'Whom you like.'
'Won't you?'
'Yes, I will.'
'Ursula?'
'Well Billy?'
'Is it WHOM you like?'
'That's it.'
'Well what is WHOM?'
'It's the accusative of who.'
There was a moment's contemplative silence, then the confiding:
'Is it?'
Birkin smiled to himself as he sat by the fire. When Ursula came down
he sat motionless, with his arms on his knees. She saw him, how he was
motionless and ageless, like some crouching idol, some image of a
deathly religion. He looked round at her, and his face, very pale and
unreal, seemed to gleam with a whiteness almost phosphorescent.
'Don't you feel well?' she asked, in indefinable repulsion.
'I hadn't thought about it.'
'But don't you know without thinking about it?'
He looked at her, his eyes dark and swift, and he saw her revulsion. He
did not answer her question.
'Don't you know whether you are unwell or not, without thinking about
it?' she persisted.
'Not always,' he said coldly.
'But don't you think that's very wicked?'
'Wicked?'
'Yes. I think it's CRIMINAL to have so little connection with your own
body that you don't even know when you are ill.'
He looked at her darkly.
'Yes,' he said.
'Why don't you stay in bed when you are seedy? You look perfectly
ghastly.'
'Offensively so?' he asked ironically.
'Yes, quite offensive. Quite repelling.'
'Ah!! Well that's unfortunate.'
'And it's raining, and it's a horrible night. Really, you shouldn't be
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