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en reading your 'Pollnitz Memoirs,' and want to talk to you about them. You know I can talk to no one as I can to you." "You do me much honor," said Falkenstein, rather formally. He was wondering in his mind whether she _had_ refused Forester or not. "What a cold, distant speech! It is very unkind of you to answer me so. What is the matter with you, Count Waldemar?" She always called him by the title he had dropped in English society; she had a fervent reverence for his historic _antecedens_; and besides, as she told him one day, "she liked to call him something no one else did." "Matter with me? Nothing at all, I assure you," he answered, still distantly. "You are not like yourself, at all events," persisted Valerie. "You should be kind to me. I have so few who are." The tone touched him; he smiled, but did not speak, as he sat down by her poking up the turf with his stick. "Count Waldemar," said Valerie, suddenly, brushing Spit's hair off his bright little eyes, "do tell me; hasn't something vexed you?" "Nothing new," answered Falkenstein, with a short laugh. "The same entanglements and annoyances that have been netting their toils round me for many years--that is all. I am young enough, as time counts, yet I give you my word I have as little hope in my future, and I know as well what my life will be as if I were fourscore." "Hush, don't say so," said Valerie, with a gesture of pain. "You are so worthy of happiness; your nature was made to be happy; and if you are not, fate has misused you cruelly." "Fate? there is no such thing. I have been a fool, and my folly is now working itself out. I have made my own life, and I have nobody but myself to thank for it." "I don't know that. Circumstances, temptation, education, opportunity, association, often take the place of the Parcae, and gild or cut the threads of our destiny." "No. I don't accept that doctrine," said Falkenstein, always much sterner judge to himself than anybody would have been to him. "What I have done has been with my eyes open. I have known the price I should pay for my pleasures, but I never paused to count it. I never stopped for any obstacle, and for what I desired, I would, like the men in the old legends, have sold myself to the devil. Now, of course, I am hampered with ten thousand embarrassments. You are young; you are a woman; you cannot understand the reckless madness which will drink the wine to-day, though one's lif
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