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me and stood beside her. "Whatever he may have done, you are not affected by it. Appearances cannot well be blacker against him than they are at present, but you must still remember you are not responsible for his ill-deeds. No one here, least of all myself, blames you. Besides, he has not yet been convicted." "Not after that letter? There can be no doubt after that. He must have had it with him when he was at Taloona, and dropped it." "But it was opened, torn open, when the trooper found it. If Eustace had dropped it, surely it would have been sealed up." She glanced at him quickly. "Do you still suspect me?" she exclaimed. "I should not be here if I did," he answered quietly. "Oh, I don't know what to think," she said. "I would rather you had come to tell me he was dead than to show me that hideous thing. Better if he were dead, far, far better, than that he should live to end his days on the gallows or in gaol." She was voicing his own thought, a thought which had been with him for many days. "It was because something of this kind might happen I wanted you to go away," he said. "I know. I understand that. But I told you--told you why I could not go." She spoke scarcely above a whisper, with her head bent over her clasped hands as though she feared he might see her face. "But the reason you gave no longer exists. Will you go now? Will you go and leave all this wretched strain and worry behind you?" "I dare not. It would drive me to perdition. You don't know how a woman thinks. So long as she has someone near her whom she knows has respect for her, she will fight against the temptation to drown all her sorrows in one reckless plunge. When that one is no longer near her, no longer her stronghold, then--what has she to live for?" "You have the respect of all who know you." She pressed her clasped hands to her lips to stop their quivering. "No, Fred, no. I must stay. I could not bear to go. A man can think for the future; a woman lives only in the present. You, a man, cannot understand that. You would say I should go away, and in a few months or a year or so everything would have blown over. That would be all right for a man, but not for a woman. It is while the affair is blowing over that she is in the greatest danger. It is then she wants sustaining. She is only conscious of the precipice at her feet. Left to herself she must lean over, nearer and nearer to the edge until she falls. "
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