at had lost its
parent, there remained in Von Barwig's mind a sense of the utter
inability of the masculine individuality to fill the place of mother in
the child's heart. In after years, Von Barwig always remembered the
sinking sensation he felt when this fact came home to him in full force.
"Well, one thing," said Anton, as he swallowed something that came in
his throat and threatened to choke him, "one thing, she was kind to the
little one; the was a kind mother, eh?"
"Kind? kind?" began Poons fiercely. "Is it kind to----"
Von Barwig silenced him with a look.
"Yes, she was a good mother," he admitted conciliatingly. "But, by
God, if we don't go we shall be late! Phew!" he whistled as he looked
at his watch, "half past seven." Von Barwig sat still for a moment.
"Half past seven? Yes." Then, as if it were slowly dawning upon him
that he had duties, he arose, dusting his knees mechanically.
"Half past seven, yes. It begins at eight, eh? and I must dress. Yes,
I suppose I must dress!"
The little girl was now putting her dolls back into the dolls' house;
the doorway was blocked up and she was pushing one through a broken
window in the little house as Von Barwig caught her in his arms and
caressed her.
"How can I leave her? Good God, how can I leave her?" he groaned. He
stroked her face, her hair, and kissed her again and again.
"She's all I have, all; she's all I want. I won't go to-night, I won't
leave her, do you hear? Let Ruhlmeyer conduct to-night. I can't go, I
can't leave her alone! Suppose something were to happen to her?"
"But you must go!" said Poons firmly; desperation had given him
courage. "You must go!"
Von Barwig looked at him in surprise; Poons's tone sobered him a little.
"For her sake you must work," went on Poons, gaining courage as he saw
that his words had an effect on his friend.
"Yes, I must work," assented Von Barwig, feeling the force of Poons's
words. "Shall I go, little Helene, my little darling? Shall I go?"
"Yes, go and tell mamma to come," was the little one's reply.
"Come, hurry, Anton! You must dress, you have barely five minutes:
five to dress, ten to get to the Gewandhaus."
"Ha! they can wait!" said Von Barwig grimly. "Prince Mecklenburg
Strelitz, the Kaiser, all Germany can wait, while I mend the strings of
my heart!"
The nurse-maid came in and suggested that it was time to put little
_Fraeulein_ to bed. Poons looked at her closely
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