betwixt God and the soul, as is set forth
after a mystical shape in the Song of Songs? But it was not for
me--no, not for me. I complain not, neither have I vexed my soul. He
doeth all things well."
"But, dear Rabbi"--and Carmichael hesitated, not knowing where he stood.
"Ye ask me why"--the Rabbi anticipated the question--"and I will tell
you plainly, for my heart has ever gone forth to you. For long years I
found no favour in the eyes of the Church, and it seemed likely I would
be rejected from the ministry as a man useless and unprofitable. How
could I attempt to win the love of any maiden, since it did not appear
to be the will of God that I should ever have a place of habitation?
It consisted not with honour, for I do hold firmly that no man hath any
right to seek unto himself a wife till he have a home."
"But . . ."
"Afterwards, you would say. Ah, John, then had I become old and
unsightly, not such a one as women could care for. It would have been
cruel to tie a maid for life to one who might only be forty years in
age, but was as seventy in his pilgrimage, and had fallen into unlovely
habits."
Then the Rabbi turned on Carmichael his gentle eyes, that were shining
with tears.
"It will be otherwise with you, and so let it be. May I live to see
you rejoicing with the wife of your youth."
So it came to pass that it was to this unlikely man Carmichael told his
new-born love, and he was amazed at the understanding of the Rabbi, as
well as his sympathy and toleration.
"A maid of spirit--and that is an excellent thing; and any excess will
be tamed by life. Only see to it that ye agree in that which lieth
beneath all churches and maketh souls one in God. May He prosper you
in your wooing as He did the patriarch Jacob, and far more abundantly."
Very early in the morning Carmichael awoke, and being tempted by the
sunrise, arose and went downstairs. As he came near the study door he
heard a voice in prayer, and knew that the Rabbi had been all night in
intercession.
"Thou hast denied me wife and child; deny me not Thyself. . . . A
stranger Thou hast made me among men; refuse me not a place in the
City. . . . Deal graciously with this lad who has been to me as a son
in the Gospel. . . . He has not despised an old man; put not his heart
to confusion. . . ."
Carmichael crept upstairs again, but not to sleep, and at breakfast he
pledged the Rabbi to come up some day and see Kate Carnegie.
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