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tness. I rolled in my agony, and bit the ground till my mouth was full of leaf mould. A planet swung from one tree-top to the next. What lay behind it? She would know soon. But I could not follow her where she was going. I should live. I knew that. When Death is courted he will not strike. I had seen that in battle. That first morning when she had come to me with the sunrise,--when she had drifted to me, bound and singing,--I had called to her to have no fear, that no harm should come to her. And she had trusted me. She had a little hollow in her brown throat where I had watched the breath flutter. I had never touched it. I could thank God for her, for one thing. She had refused my kiss. I saw the planet again, tipping another tree-top. I understood its remoteness; in my agony I was part of it. What were men, countries, empires! I felt the insignificance of life, of suffering. What did it matter if these Indians died! Why should we not all die? I crawled to my knees. I would give the signal to retreat. I would give it now. Let the massacre come. But I fell back. I could not. I could not. Three hundred lives for one life. I could spill my own blood for her, but not theirs. But as for empire, I had forgotten its meaning. All of these men lying in the shadows had women who were dear. Many of the wives would kill themselves if their husbands died. I had seen an Indian wife do it; she had smiled while she was dying. Would the woman think of me--at the last? She would not know that I had failed her. She would not know that I was worse than Starling. She was the highest-couraged, the most finely wrought woman that the world knew. Yet two men had failed her. "Monsieur," she had said, "life has not been so pleasant that I should wish to live." It was only a week ago that she--she, alive, untouched, my own--had walked away from me in the sunshine, leaning on Cadillac's arm. And I had let her go. And I had let her go. And I had let her go. I said that over and over, with my mouth dry, and I forgot time. I did not know that minutes were passing, but I looked up, and the stars were dim, and branches and twigs were taking form. Day would be on us soon. I raised myself on my elbow and peered. I could see very little, but I could hear the strange rhythmic rustle that I call the breathing of the forest. And with it mingled the breathing of three hundred warriors. They carr
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