FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   190   191   192   193   194   195   196   197   198   199   200   201   202   203   204   205   206   207   208   209   210   211   212   213   214  
215   216   217   218   219   220   221   222   223   224   225   226   227   228   229   230   231   232   233   234   235   236   237   238   239   >>   >|  
But I am sure that the less said--or even thought--about it, the better. You won't think me unkind, will you? "You will see a report of my speech in the debate to-morrow. It certainly made an impression, and I must manage, if I can, to stick to Parliament. But we will consult when we meet. "Your most loving OLIVER." As he wrote it Marsham had been uncomfortably conscious of another self beside him--mocking, or critical. "I don't regret it for myself." Pshaw! What was there to choose between him and his mother? There, on his writing-table, lay a number of recent bills, and some correspondence as to a Scotch moor he had persuaded his mother to take for the coming season. There was now to be an end, he supposed, to the expenditure which the bills represented, and an end to expensive moors. "I don't regret it for myself." Damned humbug! When did any man, brought up in wealth, make the cold descent to poverty and self-denial without caring? Yet he let the sentence stand. He was too sleepy, too inert, to rewrite it. And how cold were all his references to the catastrophe! He groaned as he thought of Diana--as though he actually saw the vulture gnawing at the tender breast. Had she slept?--had the tears stopped? Let him tear up the beastly thing, and begin again! No. His head fell forward on his arm. Some dull weight of character--of disillusion--interposed. He could do no better. He shut, stamped, and posted what he had written. * * * * * At mid-day, in her Brookshire village, Diana received the letter--with another from London, in a handwriting she did not know. When she had read Marsham's it dropped from her hand. The color flooded her cheeks--as though the heart leaped beneath a fresh blow which it could not realize or measure. Was it so she would have written to Oliver if-- She was sitting at her writing-table in the drawing-room. Her eyes wandered through the mullioned window beside her to the hill-side and the woods. This was Wednesday. Four days since, among those trees, Oliver had spoken to her. During those four days it seemed to her that, in the old Hebrew phrase, she had gone down into the pit. All the nameless dreads and terrors of her youth, all the intensified fears of the last few weeks, had in a few minutes become real and verified--only in a shape infinitely more terrible than any fear among them all had ever dared to prophesy
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   190   191   192   193   194   195   196   197   198   199   200   201   202   203   204   205   206   207   208   209   210   211   212   213   214  
215   216   217   218   219   220   221   222   223   224   225   226   227   228   229   230   231   232   233   234   235   236   237   238   239   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

regret

 

thought

 

Marsham

 
mother
 

Oliver

 

writing

 

written

 

cheeks

 

flooded

 

beneath


leaped
 

weight

 

character

 
interposed
 

realize

 

measure

 

disillusion

 

Brookshire

 

handwriting

 

London


letter
 

village

 

posted

 

stamped

 

received

 
dropped
 
window
 

intensified

 

minutes

 

terrors


nameless
 

dreads

 

prophesy

 

terrible

 

verified

 

infinitely

 
wandered
 

mullioned

 

forward

 
sitting

drawing

 
Hebrew
 

phrase

 
During
 

spoken

 

Wednesday

 

tender

 

critical

 

mocking

 

uncomfortably