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e that life was meant to 'be good' in. Isn't there anything better than being good? When I'm 'good,' I simply feel wicked." She reached up, caught a flower from the hedge, and slowly tore its petals. "What would you do," she muttered, "if you wanted a thing, but were afraid of it? But I suppose you're never afraid!" she added, mocking me. I admitted that I was sometimes afraid, and often afraid of being afraid. "That's nice! I'm not afraid of illness, nor of grandfather, nor of his God; but--I want to be free. If you want a thing badly, you're afraid about it." I thought of Zachary Pearse's words, "free as a man." "Why are you looking at me like that?" she said. I stammered: "What do you mean by freedom?" "Do you know what I shall do to-night?" she answered. "Get out of my window by the apple-tree, and go to the woods, and play!" We were going down a steep lane, along the side of a wood, where there's always a smell of sappy leaves, and the breath of the cows that come close to the hedge to get the shade. There was a cottage in the bottom, and a small boy sat outside playing with a heap of dust. "Hallo, Johnny!" said Pasiance. "Hold your leg out and show this man your bad place!" The small boy undid a bandage round his bare and dirty little leg, and proudly revealed a sore. "Isn't it nasty?" cried Pasiance ruefully, tying up the bandage again; "poor little feller! Johnny, see what I've brought you!" She produced from her pocket a stick of chocolate, the semblance of a soldier made of sealing-wax and worsted, and a crooked sixpence. It was a new glimpse of her. All the way home she was telling me the story of little Johnny's family; when she came to his mother's death, she burst out: "A beastly shame, wasn't it, and they're so poor; it might just as well have been somebody else. I like poor people, but I hate rich ones--stuck-up beasts." Mrs. Hopgood was looking over the gate, with her cap on one side, and one of Pasiance's cats rubbing itself against her skirts. At the sight of us she hugged herself. "Where's grandfather?" asked Pasiance. The old lady shook her head. "Is it a row?" Mrs. Hopgood wriggled, and wriggled, and out came: "Did you get yure tay, my pretty? No? Well, that's a pity; yu'll be falin' low-like." Pasiance tossed her head, snatched up the cat, and ran indoors. I remained staring at Mrs. Hopgood. "Dear-dear," she clucked, "poor lamb. So to spake it's--" and she bl
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