him since his disappearance, and that I do
not know whether he be living or dead. The last statement is true, for
years ago I definitely refused to receive any communication from him,
but I must tell you that I believe him to be living, and that I know
that living or dead he has provided money for your use if you should
ever wish to claim it.
"The address he last sent me, and that of the firm of lawyers who
has the management of the property intended for you, are sealed in
envelopes in this box. In it also are all the things necessary to
establish your identity, my marriage certificate, your birth record,
pictures of your father and of me, and of the three of us taken when
you were two years old, before the shadow of the awful tragedy that
came later had begun to fall."
I sprang from my chair, dropping the pages of the letter unheeded in
the shock of the revelation they brought me. My father had planned for
me; had provided for me; had tried to communicate with my mother! He
must have been repentant; he was not all the heartless brute I had
thought him. As though a cloud had been lifted, from my life and a
weary weight had rolled from my heart, I turned again to mother's
letter.
"Remember, it is my last wish, Margaret, that if your father be
living, sometime you may be reconciled, to him. I have been weak and
bitter enough during all these years to be meanly comforted by your
stanch championship of me, and your detestation of the wrong your
father did me. But death brings clearer vision, my child, and I cannot
wish that your father's last years,--if, indeed, he be living--should
be desolated by not knowing you. I want you to know that there were
many things which, while they did not extenuate your father, yet might
in some measure explain his action.
"I was much to blame--I can see it now, for not being able to hold
his love. You are so much like me, my darling, that I tremble for your
happiness if you should happen to marry the wrong kind of man. I have
wondered often if the story of my tragedy, terrible as it is for me to
think of it, might not help you. And yet--it might do more harm than
good. At any rate, I have written it all out, and put it with the
other things in the box. I feel a curious sort of fatalism concerning
this letter. It is borne in upon me that if you ever need to read it
you will read it. It will help you to understand your father
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