married to your father."
Susan sat in a brown study. "I can't understand," she said at
last. "Why--she _must_ have been married, or--or--there wouldn't
have been me."
Ruth smiled uneasily. "Not at all. Don't you really understand?"
Susan shook her head.
"He--he betrayed her--and left her--and then everybody knew
because you came."
Susan's violet-gray eyes rested a grave, inquiring glance upon
her cousin's face. "But if he betrayed her---- What does 'betray'
mean? Doesn't it mean he promised to marry her and didn't?"
"Something like that," said Ruth. "Yes--something like that."
"Then _he_ was the disgrace," said the dark cousin, after reflecting.
"No--you're not telling me, Ruth. _What_ did my mother do?"
"She had you without being married."
Again Susan sat in silence, trying to puzzle it out. Ruth lifted
herself, put the pillows behind her back. "You don't
understand--anything--do you? Well, I'll try to explain--though
I don't know much about it."
And hesitatingly, choosing words she thought fitted to those
innocent ears, hunting about for expressions she thought
comprehensible to that innocent mind, Ruth explained the
relations of the sexes--an inaccurate, often absurd,
explanation, for she herself knew only what she had picked up
from other girls--the fantastic hodgepodge of pruriency,
physiology and sheer nonsense which under our system of
education distorts and either alarms or inflames the imaginations
of girls and boys where the clean, simple truth would at least
enlighten them. Susan listened with increasing amazement.
"Well, do you understand?" Ruth ended. "How we come into the
world--and what marriage means?"
"I don't believe it," declared Susan. "It's--awful!" And she
shivered with disgust.
"I tell you it's true," insisted Ruth. "I thought it was awful
when I first heard--when Lottie Wright took me out in their
orchard, where nobody could listen, and told me what their cook
had told her. But I've got kind of used to it."
"But it--it's so, then; my mother did marry my father," said Susan.
"No. She let him betray her. And when a woman lets a man betray
her without being married by the preacher or somebody, why,
she's ruined forever."
"But doesn't marriage mean where two people promise to love each
other and then betray each other?"
"If they're married, it isn't betraying," explained Ruth. "If
they're not, it is betraying." Susan reflected, nodded slow
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