to the life of a garcon can't be always tied to his mother's
apron-strings."
"Especially if the apron-pocket does not contain a bottle of absinthe,"
said Savarin, drily. "You may well colour and try to look angry; but I
know that the doctor strictly forbade the use of that deadly liqueur,
and enjoined your mother to keep strict watch on your liability to its
temptations. And hence one cause of your ennui under the paternal roof.
But if there you could not imbibe absinthe, you were privileged to
enjoy a much diviner intoxication. There you could have the foretaste of
domestic bliss,--the society of the girl you loved, and who was pledged
to become your wife. Speak frankly. Did not that society itself begin to
be wearisome?"
"No," cried Gustave, eagerly, "it was not wearisome--"
"Yes, but--"
"But it could not be all-sufficing to a soul of fire like mine."
"Hem," murmured Savarin--"a soul of fire! This is very interesting; pray
go on."
"The calm, cold, sister-like affection of a childish undeveloped
nature, which knew no passion except for art, and was really so little
emancipated from the nursery as to take for serious truth all the old
myths of religion--such companionship may be very soothing and pleasant
when one is lying on one's sofa, and must live by rule, but when one
regains the vigour of youth and health--"
"Do not pause," said Savarin, gazing with more compassion than envy on
that melancholy impersonation of youth and health. "When one regains
that vigour of which I myself have no recollection, what happens?"
"The thirst for excitement, the goads of ambition, the irresistible
claims which the world urges upon genius, return."
"And that genius, finding itself at the North Pole amid Cimmerian
darkness in the atmosphere of a childish intellect--in other words,
the society of a pure-minded virgin, who, though a good romance-writer,
writes nothing but what a virgin may read, and, though a bel esprit,
says her prayers and goes to church--then genius--well, pardon my
ignorance, what does genius do?"
"Oh, M. Savarin, M. Savarin! don't let us talk any more. There is no
sympathy between us. I cannot bear that bloodless, mocking, cynical mode
of dealing with grand emotions, which belongs to the generation of the
Doctrinaires. I am not a Thiers or a Guizot."
"Good heavens! who ever accused you of being either? I did not mean
to be cynical. Mademoiselle Cicogna has often said I am, but I did
not thi
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