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llect. I shall feel with you and work for you, doubt not, even though I am unable to explain to myself why I do it.' 'Then you cannot solve my riddle?' 'Let me help you,' said Synesius with a sweet smile, 'to solve it for yourself. You need not try to deceive me. You have a love, an undefiled, who is but one. When you possess her, you will be able to judge better whether your interpretation of the Song is the true one; and if you still think that it is, Synesius, at least, will have no quarrel against you. He has always claimed for himself the right of philosophising in private, and he will allow the same liberty to you' whether the mob do or not.' 'Then you agree with me? Of course you do!' 'Is it fair to ask me whether I accept a novel interpretation, which I have only heard five minutes ago, delivered in a somewhat hasty and rhetorical form?' 'You are shirking the question,' said Raphael peevishly. 'And what if I am? Tell me, point-blank, most self-tormenting of men, can I help you in practice, even though I choose to leave you to yourself in speculation?' 'Well, then, if you will have my story, take it, and judge for yourself of Christian common sense.' And hurriedly, as if ashamed of his own confession, and yet compelled, in spite of himself, to unbosom it, he told Synesius all, from his first meeting with Victoria to his escape from her at Berenice. The good bishop, to Aben-Ezra's surprise, seemed to treat the whole matter as infinitely amusing. He chuckled, smote his hand on his thigh, and nodded approval at every pause--perhaps to give the speaker courage--perhaps because he really thought that Raphael's prospects were considerably less desperate than he fancied.... 'If you laugh at me, Synesius, I am silent. It is quite enough to endure the humiliation of telling you that I am--confound it!--like any boy of sixteen.' 'Laugh at you?--with you, you mean. A convent? Pooh, pooh! The old Prefect has enough sense, I will warrant him, not to refuse a good match for his child.' 'You forget that I have not the honour of being a Christian.' 'Then we'll make you one. You won't let me convert you, I know; you always used to gibe and jeer at my philosophy. But Augustine comes to-morrow. 'Augustine?' 'He does indeed; and we must be off by daybreak, with all the armed men we can muster, to meet and escort him, and to hunt, of course, going and coming; for we have had no food this fortnight,
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