FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85  
86   87   >>  
uss later." "... feel...." "I said ... out of here...." The voices became a meaningless liquid torrent cascading into a black pit. * * * * * Now Temple sat with a water-glass a third full of Canadian in his hand, every once in a while reaching up gingerly to explore the bruised swelling on his head, the blood-matted hair which covered it. To be a cuckold was one thing, but to be the naive, political pawn sort of cuckold who is not a cuckold at all, he told himself, is far worse. To live with his woman, eat the meals she cooked for him, talk to her, think she understood him, sympathize with him, to make love to her with passion while she responds with play-acting for a hundred thousand dollar salary was suddenly the most emasculating thing in the world for Temple. He had not thought to ask how long it had been going on. Better, perhaps, if he never knew. And somewhere lost in the maze of his thoughts was the grimmest, bleakest reality of them all: Lucy was dead. Lucy--dead. But where did Lucy leave off, where did Sophia begin? Was Lucy dead that night they returned more than a little drunk from the Chamber's party, that night they danced in the living room until dawn obscured the stars and he carried Lucy upstairs. Lucy or Sophia? And the day they motored to the lake, their secret lake, hardly more than a dammed, widened stream and dreamed of the things they could do when the Cold War ended? Lucy--or Sophia? Had he ever noticed a difference in the way Lucy-Sophia cooked, in the way she spoke, the way she let him make love to her? He thought himself into a man-sized headache and found no answers. This way at least the loss of his wife was not as traumatic as it might have been. He knew not when she died or how and, in fact, Lucy-Sophia seemed so much like the real thing that he did not know where he could stop loving and start hating. And the girl, the Russian girl, had saved his life. Why? He couldn't answer that one either, unless if it were as Charles suggested: Sophia had studied Lucy so carefully, had learned her likes and dislikes, her wants and desires, had memorized and practised every quirk of her character to such an extent that Sophia was Lucy in essence. Which, Temple thought, would make it all the harder to seek out Sophia and kill her. That was the answer, the only answer. Temple felt a dull ache where his heart should have been, a pressure, a pounding, an un
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85  
86   87   >>  



Top keywords:
Sophia
 

Temple

 

answer

 
cuckold
 

thought

 

cooked

 

headache

 

answers

 
traumatic
 
dammed

widened

 

stream

 

dreamed

 

secret

 

motored

 

things

 

difference

 

noticed

 

essence

 
extent

harder
 

character

 
desires
 

memorized

 

practised

 

pressure

 

pounding

 
dislikes
 
Russian
 

hating


upstairs
 

loving

 

couldn

 

studied

 

carefully

 

learned

 

suggested

 

Charles

 

understood

 

hundred


thousand

 

dollar

 

salary

 
acting
 

sympathize

 

passion

 

responds

 

matted

 

swelling

 

explore