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remember, that under any circumstances, the king should secure you a
safe and ample independence. If his death finds you well provided for,
you will still have a court, friends, relatives, partisans, in a word,
the means of gratifying every inclination. Be guided by me, and follow
my advice."
And after this lesson of practical morality, the marechale quitted me to
hurry to Paris; and I, wearied and heartsick, flew to my crowded salons
as a remedy against the gloomy ideas her conversation had given rise to.
On this evening my guests were more numerous and brilliant than usual,
for no person entertaining the least suspicion of the king's danger,
all vied with each other in evincing, by their presence, the desire
they felt of expressing their regard for me. My friends, acquaintances,
people whom I scarcely knew at all, were collected together in my
drawing-rooms; this large assemblage of joyous and cheerful faces, drove
away for a moment all the gloom which had bung over me. I even forgot
the morning's visitor, and if the health of the king were at all alluded
to, it was only _en passant_. It seemed a generally understood thing not
to believe him seriously ill; in fact, to deny all possibility of such
a thing being the case. Thus all went on as usual, scandal, slander,
epigrams, _jeux d'esprits_, all the lively nonsense usually circulated
upon such occasions, went round, and were laughed at and admired
according to the tastes of those to whom they were addressed.
Could a stranger have seen us, so careless, thoughtless, and gay, he
would have been far from suspecting that we were upon the eve of a
catastrophe which must change the whole face of affairs in France. For
my own part, my spirits rose to a height with the giddy crowd around me,
and in levity and folly, I really believe I exceeded them.
At a late hour my rooms were at length forsaken, and I retired to my
chamber where, having dismissed my other attendants, I remained alone
(as was frequently my custom) with my faithful Henriette, whom I caused
to exchange my evening dress for a dark robe, which I covered with
a large Spanish mantle I had never before worn, and thus equipped,
I waited the arrival of comte Jean. Henriette, surprised at these
preparations, pressed me with so many questions, that at last I
explained my whole purpose to her. The attached creature exerted all her
eloquence to point out the dangers of the enterprise, which she implored
of me to
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