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arnest, and that everything depended upon her answer to him, but it was not till he found himself in her presence, and alone with her, that he realized the truth of his conviction. Then the influences of her grace, her gayety, her arch beauty, above all, her good sense, penetrated his soul like a subtle intoxication, and he said to himself that he was right; he could not live without her; these attributes of hers were what he needed to win him, to cheer him, to charm him, to guide him. He longed so to please her, to ingratiate himself with her, that he attempted to be light like her in his talk, but lapsed into abysmal absences and gloomy recesses of introspection. "What are you laughing at?" he asked, suddenly starting from one of these. "What you are thinking of." "It's nothing to laugh at. Do you know what I'm thinking of?" "Don't tell, if it's dreadful." "Oh, I dare say you wouldn't think it's dreadful," he said, with bitterness. "It's simply the case of a man who has made a fool of himself and sees no help of retrieval in himself." "Can any one else help a man unmake a fool of himself?" she asked, with a smile. "Yes. In a case like this." "Dear me! This is very interesting." She did not ask him what the case was, but he was launched now, and he pressed on. "I am the man who has made a fool of himself--" "Oh!" "And you can help me out if you will. Alma, I wish you could see me as I really am." "Do you, Mr. Beacon? Perhaps I do." "No; you don't. You formulated me in a certain way, and you won't allow for the change that takes place in every one. You have changed; why shouldn't I?" "Has this to do with your having made a fool of yourself?" "Yes." "Oh! Then I don't see how you have changed." She laughed, and he too, ruefully. "You're cruel. Not but what I deserve your mockery. But the change was not from the capacity of making a fool of myself. I suppose I shall always do that more or less--unless you help me. Alma! Why can't you have a little compassion? You know that I must always love you." "Nothing makes me doubt that like your saying it, Mr. Beaton. But now you've broken your word--" "You are to blame for that. You knew I couldn't keep it!" "Yes, I'm to blame. I was wrong to let you come--after that. And so I forgive you for speaking to me in that way again. But it's perfectly impossible and perfectly useless for me to hear you any more on that subject; and so-good-b
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